Sasha Pivovarova


Sasha Pivovarova


Sasha Pivovarova


Bar Rafaeli



Bar Rafaeli

She's quite gorgeous in this picture. I love tall girls :D BUT I'm straight. hahahahaha.
My favorite supermodel is SASHA!
I love supermodels.
I can't find other stunning pictures offhand and these are just some that I found whilst surfing a while ago.


I do not know when I am supposed to go back to school to obtain my O level results.
Anyway, who cares?
I'll naturally know when the time comes.
I need to resolve to eat less. Whenever I'm upset, I eat significantly more and my dad says I'm suffering from depression. No, not that extreme. Darn it. I'm a really jovial girl.
I grew taller! YAY. I measured myself today.
I wanna hit 175. About two inches more. Actually I wanted to hit 179 but it's kinda insane.
Okay, it IS insane.

I must drink more milk and exercise vigorously.

I'm popping a lot of health supplements that my mum bought to sustain my body in view of the operation.

It has truly been ages since I last updated. I recall utilizing this to improve my command of the language and it looks like this still is a great outlet for me to make use of. haha, this sounds so serious.

anyway, the past holiday has truly been a very trying one for me. Though it may sound very typical and this can happen to anyone, it is something like this that makes one treasure life and it awakens me to the fact that humans are weak and frail.

I've had this lump on my butt and I dismissed it off as a natural mutation and after undergoing the operation for the first time to rid that annoying thing, I was given a call to rush back to the hospital after certain tests. The operation was truly and experience. I opted for local a, and I was awake throughout the whole procedure. I heard things like' mysterious' during the op and the anaesthetic wore off several times during the op. The sewing up of the wound hurt quite a bit because the jab had already worn off. It was kinda scary, with people touching you and tugging at you. haha, sounds humourous, right.

Further tests conclude that this tumor is between malignant and benign, (they can't diagnose it) and the identified 'object' can spread and even reoccur in the same area or even other organs. This case is significantly rare and has surfaced in that hospital for about two times throughout the past decade or decades. wow.

I'm gonna survive anyway. :D
I was really upset, but i thought. 'Everything in life happens for a purpose or plan, and I'll have to go through it anyway, so I must be strong and happy.'

I'm alright now. (: The operation is on 7jan. that's a few days later. Do remember me in your prayers!

ANYWAY.

The holidays were great. HAHA I AM SO GLAD.

I am truly relieved that my burden has finally been lifted off after this long period of time and heartbreak. Sorry for those weird things! Have fun! I hope i mean it now.

It's just a pity that good things in life don't last. I've said this before. 'The world is ending and we should just treasure the time we have now.' I've said this to several people. Before that, I felt like being rash and impulsive and doing all that I wanted, but Qi told me that the world isn't ending now, and I should live for God. She's right, but it really is seemingly impossible to lay off everything and devote my all because there still is a part of me that is reluctant to. The message yesterday was really relevant. 'Not a hoof' should we leave on Earth, but we continue doing that because we're human and we're weak. How dampening.

I must stop caring.
STOP CARING!
hahaha, too bad i still do.
hmmmmm

Let's marvel at this beautiful sight together and enjoy the moment while it lasts.
alright?

i am ill. i felt half dead when i was doing e math paper 2. the paper was easy though. i think i am running a temperature. my whole body seems to be cooking, i am suffering from flu and sore throat and my head hurts. ): pray for me!

i just reread my previous post. it was truly uplifting. i guess there are just certain times when you feel that all is lost and it takes that much to lift you out of your despondent state. Everything that dawns on me happens for a purpose and plan. God's plan. I continually remind myself that this is true and life seems to be more pleasant when i adopt this notion. Anyone can be happy. They just have to allow it. I cannot accept it when someone revisits the past all the time and blames and rebukes me for something i have done years ago. i was a young teenager, impressionable, typical, whatever. everyone knows a child can't think right. true. stop it. i guess that is what they deem ' living in the past'- blaming you for every single mistake that has long been eradicated from your memory, telling you to learn, to learn, to learn. it does not help when the corrector thinks that it is beneficial to the person concerning this matter.

ignore?

the next paper is coming up soon. i will be glad when this is all over.
i wish my foolish pride would go away.
is it that hard to let go?
i have already fallen deep into this trap years ago.

i wish i were a young and adorable little girl. i would do all the stupid and frivolous things and everyone would love me and take it as it is. too bad i am not. not anymore.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ALLISTER! :D

Yes, lis, this is for you. Haha i am sorry I gave you that gay girl name.
I enjoyed learning with you during our 'study' sessions in the cafe those times.
it was great talking to you on the phone and laughing about ridiculous things.
you are a nice bro! ( i think) sorry i can't send you birthday greetings because your phone is not in a working condition. (:
-i will tell him to read this.

As the end of this year draws near, i cannot help but reflect about the past year. everyone has aged by a year, transformed, gone through much more in life, seen a lot more and experienced memorable stages of life.

i wasted away most of my time. it is only recently that i really started working hard for my upcoming papers. i feel the urge to do well. i think i have changed a lot. i did not use to care about anyone else and their existence apart from myself and perhaps a few exceptions.

God has a purpose and plan for everything. He continually moulds me, rids the imperfections, the flaws, everything that is not pleasing to him. We cannot deny that there is a God, a living God. he is not an inanimate object. He is our ethereal Father, our sovereign king.

Ask yourself. Who made the world? Who made us?

Did we just appear out of nowhere and have a life of our own?

No.

He created us, and Man fell. Man continually lives in iniquity, and the world is sin-ridden. People dying, throat-slashing, poverty, backstabbing, whatever it is, it is of the world.

But, God is here to save us. God is immaculate. He cannot tolerate sin. Jesus died for us, and he rose . If we believe that He died for us, we have a place in heaven. It is that simple. You cannot deny that there is a God. It is blatant.

I have this friend who recently told me about her new-found faith in Christ. She used to be an atheist but has thus abandoned her old beliefs. It is truly remarkable because her current belief opposes her initial stand. I am really glad.
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Graduation was great. I will miss my classmates. It was then when we finally took off the masks and revealed a little of our true selves. Sadly but true, people start to appreciate another when we have to part with each other.

i've got to study real hard and ace the test!
i must constantly motivate myself to give my all.
it's my future.
everything else can wait after the final examination.
that is all in my head right now. that has totally got to sink in.
sink in, stay there.
i will attain all that i want after it.

studied in the morning, then swam with cheryl and ling yu. ling yu left early so she didn't take pictures with us. it was awesomeness. the lifeguard thinking that i was gonna drown when i was holding onto the wall at the 1.8m mark, (lol, i can swim okay! he told me to swim at the tiny shallow area at the sides of the pool.) jumping into shallow waters thinking that it was deep enough(children's pool), having a great time in the freezing waters of the shallow indoor pool, jacuzzi-like things and cheryl teaching me to float in the deep pool! haha. it was simply marvellous. all the things we do to relax before we start studying really hard for the final exam. at her place now. the self-timed shots as follows:

cool slides! haha they are anti-butts. (sounds weird, nevermind. )


haha okay the apprehensive children just ambled across. coolx. a goggle covers half my body. i am so tiny. nawtx.



heh look at us girls.



i like the purple slide.


we were waiting for the water to fall from above. lol. there's a huge pail that is not captured on this picture.



kid's playground.



AWESOMENESS! :D



we are happy children.



haha i am in a state of bliss. i shall study smart tomorrow.

cont.

rollerblading at night!

















i jumped in from the first level. lol












i was trying to show off my blade, not my legs.



goodnight.

THE PRELIMS are finally over. I can throw aside the books for a few days. (:
surprising, how things come to my mind when i am off the com and when i get to use it, i can't think of much to say.

God works wonders. everything falls into place according to his purpose and plan.
I have to be a better girl, and i am still growing. i can't revert to what i was before, though i admit the fact that i am not a very pleasant person at times.

you can't really trust anyone wholly. you've got to give without expecting returns.
we've got to rely on God rather than man. How everything falls into place like a picture perfect puzzle simply amazes me. it is just so unfathomable, as though we were acting out roles of an impeccable script.

michael phelps is so cool. haha i wanna emulate him.

A1 FOR CHINESE O LEVEL, distinction for CHINESE ORAL.
my first chinese A1! haha. i'm like tracing my roots to china.
i am pleased. (: i shall live in bliss for one day.
two whole weeks of i-adore-chinese attitude, a three hundred plus or four you jin chim book plus a half read book,
and awfully incomprehensible newspapers,
reading dictionary and half done papers.
yay :D

i feel faint. i am not well. i sincerely hope that i will recover before prelims.
i hate disappointment. everything.
i must combat on, and i'll grow.
i still care about my friends, true ones.
i'll have to be true myself.
i love my family.
i must endeavor to love everybody.

Lord, sustain me.