Hello, I shall compose a story now, since I am home rather early and the rest of the school is probably having PTM soon. I am really happy! Ran 5.5 km today in the gym. Well, I do know that it is indeed a lot easier in the gym, and I would love running in the outdoors too but enduring the sun during school hours is simply unbearable. Haha! Shall run outdoors when I am free on weekends.

Alright, I shall tell you about my fitness level which you probably are unconcerned about.
Oh yeah, I found out my position for Cross Country and I actually got 12th! I was extremely disappointed because on that day, I did not make it into the Top Ten even though I knew I was faster than the J1s who got into it, hence the great disappointment. Haha, Evelyn got 11th and we are the sad ones who did not get any medal nor recognition! ): Wouldn't even have known if I did not ask the teacher. Well, I have trained insanely after that and I am sure I am much faster now. (:

Now for my story. I was thinking that perhaps I should write from a male's point of view. Pretty sure that that story would sound as though it were composed by effeminate male though. I wonder. Often times, I would have a story in my head at odd timings when I am far away from the computer, and when I actually sit in front of the screen, I decide not to post it. Rationality.
Ta-da.

"Pen and Paper"

Before I forget the events that transpired, I shall quickly note them down. I feel as though my memories would slip away before I can jot them down. No, no. It cannot happen. I don't want to lose it, it must stay close. I think that if I write it down, perhaps I can have some rein over my emotions. Maybe, but then again, how can emotions be real? It is all chemicals. I learnt it from the textbook, and then my teacher told me there is no such thing as love, just chemical reactions.
What do I believe? I went out just now. No, I believe. I believe it is I who controls everything I believe in. Yes, if I tell myself I will get that, so I will. Yes, yes. Quickly now. I remember that day. It was a strange day. Odd, but not yet strange, because it was just different. I would not have seen you on normal days. No, yes, but no, things like that can be created. Then again, who creates it? You, or I? Do I really want that? I made myself feel that way. I just wanted to. Perhaps subconsciously, (or is it really the conscious mind?) I did not want it. There must have been an action which turned it away. Is that? No, I am not penning it down. It is too dangerous. It is evidence, that I have felt this way before. No, I cannot have that. I need control. No evidence shall bring me away from my aims.

I stopped writing. I just bought a lighter just now. Somehow I went out to buy a shirt, but could not find it and I saw a lighter. I bought it, and it will come in handy now. Slowly, I took the lighter out and pressed it. Sparks. Yes, burn the evidence. Let it burn, let it be consumed. I saw how the flames engulfed the side, and then it stopped. Why? Is that a sign to tell me evidence can NEVER be removed? What the heck. No, It must burn. I'll take the pen and cancell it so it'll be hidden. Wait, did that happen in the past or am I cancelling my words now? I do not know. I merely remember something, something about the ligher. Oh no, what's happening. I must find that paper. I must cancel it off, I must burn it. No, no, where is it?

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Haha, that is example of mad writing.
Okay, have fun! :D

I shall dedicate this post to the world of fitness and health.
Fitness, health and the idea of losing weight is all about 4 main pillars.
They are, according to my source, "Strength, Cardio, Nutrition and Mental".

I shall speak on mental strength. It is extremely important to know that this diet of lifestyle that you are going to embark on is one that you can sustain for a lifetime. If you are to do this for let us say 90 days, on the 91th day, you will start stuffing yourself and gaining back all the weight loss.
Now, what is the most ideal way?
That is to exercise and to eat in discrete amounts. Do not ever stop yourself from getting your cravings. For example, if you yearn for cheesecake like I usually do, do allow yourself to eat it! Just go running later or cut down on some rice to allow some space for indulging yourself in these deemed unhealthy foods.

Haha, I am kinda obsessed about health and fitness now, explaining the post.
I have been successful and I have lost more than 4kg already!
Start being healthy today!

The benefits of exercising are that you will become an extremely disciplined person, have better stamina, have good complexion, attain greater attention span and focus.

I will do the guy pull-ups. Must train. Hahahahahhaa.

(I am happy! :D Yes I am. Haha, I feel so good after writing that post.
I have this urge to delete that negativity but I guess lashing it out is good. Yay! :D)

I really dislike how certain men like to control women.

Where is the equality? No, I know what you are gonna tell me.
Religion has dictated that women are of lesser importance.
Moreover, the average men possesses considerable strength that is far greater that any average female being. They can scare you, use their fists, beat you, harm you and you HAVE TO SUBMIT. Not unless you arm yourself or train, but you're still weak.
Oh and then this character keeps calling us and finding out where we are. It makes me want to leave more, you know? (: You need to create respect. It is really sad.
And then it comes the time where I typically become positive.
Yeah, I really hope he learns.

And then usually I write angry stuff and delete it all and make it sound positive by refuting all the anger by saying they care, yes they do! No, I am not doing that today.

By the way, I am merely saying whatever I want. I am not crafting a GP argument.
However, I feel that we HAVE RIGHTS.
What gives a male the advantage to deem females as objects?
They use patronizing words like "hot", and "babe" and they treat them like trophy girlfriends.
And then there is this idea that we should submit.
When we marry, we shall stay at home and we shall be the housecleaner.
And then that man says, "you are supposed to look after the house" in that condescending manner and then he is the one that wastes his life away. I can't stand you.

That is the notion that is entrenched in the patriarchal society, I tell you.

No, I am living in the modern day society, my dear.

Actually, no matter what, females still submit.
You know why? They want to be accepted. They do not want to be spinsters.
Social mores.
And yes, a buddy in bed.
It is so sad, cuz we're all like that. We don't wanna be alone.
What is this world coming to?
LOL.
It is so sad, it is so sad.
But I am happy. I just like writing when I feel annoyed.
The anger just flows through and the writing seems so vibrant. Hah.

I control my emotions. (:
Gee, my partner will not be like that. We will be equal.