I hope you'll Make up your mind.

Lessons from each trial solely serve this purpose- to educate.
I hope I'll learn.

Promos in 2 weeks.
Heavenly Father, please guide me.

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"Surprise me"

Like the capricious eventide breeze in the season of doom
Characterized by such impulse as it dug its own tomb
Mesmerize me further but withhold the last breadth
Of pure merriment without an inch of suspense

Do not do this.

Started studying for econs today.
I crafted a timetable and I followed it for the first hour.
The breaks were longer than intended!
It's a good start though.

Haha, do it girl!

I did something not really good again, second time this month.
Not literally though. Haha.
Lol. It's okay. Sorry people.

I am glad for real friends and family.
I must be nicer to my family.
Cooking dinner now. :D
Creamy mushroom spag! :D

The only thing I care about now is acing my promos.

Why won't they get away.

I am in a queer state now. I stayed up till two plus for no apparent reason and I am really tired at the moment.

I commit bad acts some times, just like her.
And I feel bad, unlike her.

And I am dreadfully tired from it.
As events are past and memories are forgone, days drift on without a momentary pause.

I am extremely tired already.

I hate it- how I give up and then things take a complete turn.
I detest it- how I falter and alter my mindset every time.
I abhor how they like engaging in manipulation, and I am disappointed at how they revert to their old selves time and again.
I dislike how I give in and commit those baneful actions.

And most of all, I like it how we're happy at those temporal moments.
But when I let my guard down you're back to your old self.
But it's okay, you have an impervious shield. :D

People who perpetually have a cynical view about everything put me off in a sad way.
Will my friends be glad one day?

I left and returned, but now,
It's time to leave.

Okay, I have gone. :D Hehe.

I am in control.
I am not gonna participate in mind races.

((:

I'm glad it's a week's break! :D

Now for my gay side,
I love Chuanie, Vaish and Melmel :D :D
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I think "The Winding Staircase" is damn sad.
Haha. Attempt to put yourself in the person's shoes, engaging in "false merriment".
Well, I did once. Hahaha, sorry I just love my poems. They are my babies. :D

"The loathsome pretense, how she fabricates it herself
The useless endeavors when there was everyone else
How those folks were replete with the blissfulness that couple shared
She engaged in that detested false merriment, like she even Damned cared"

"How those folks were replete with the blissfulness that couple shared
Their enviable gladness, Like she even Damned cared
She was sobbing uncontrollably, this They will never know
The sympathetic wails, engulfing her very soul"

"The winding staircase, the splendid place to hide
Those blessed people below will never know her plight"

And
"Her imperishable smile she adopts once more"

Haha, those depressing moments I once went through!
Lol, but it's over.

How nice.
I love smiles.
They hide everything.
But they are genuine now. (:
I do not hide things anymore.
Haha! :D

Yay! I won something.
I am extremely happy.
I am a budding poet! YAYYYYYY. Hahahaha.
Gotta go up and collect something tomorrow.
Read my poem! :DD

"The Winding Staircase"

Trivial things that made her day
A winsome smile that took countless breaths away
Like the sun that perpetually sets in the west
The flirtatious ways that constantly kept her in unrest

She once cared though currently it is overwhelming to mention
The competition and how she abhorred the rising tension
Time was when she previously had her way
Conversely right now she will not have her say

The winsome smile she abominates the most
How it manages to entice the ones she loved and lost
Utterly useless, she feigns her euphoria
Till she cannot stand it any longer, she flees and tears

The loathsome pretense, how she fabricates it herself
The useless endeavors when there was everyone else
How those folks were replete with the blissfulness that couple shared
She engaged in that detested false merriment, like she even Damned cared

Your pathetic smiles and your feigned concern
Utterly repulsive like a withered fern
Too much this time, She wholly breaks down
She sprints up the stairs and the piercing tears; the results of what she has sown

How those folks were replete with the blissfulness that couple shared
Their enviable gladness, Like she even Damned cared
She was sobbing uncontrollably, this They will never know
The sympathetic wails, engulfing her very soul

The winding staircase, the splendid place to hide
Those blessed people below will never know her plight
She was done with self-pity, nothing will be alright
She wipes away the piercing tears and retreats to their side

Her imperishable smile she adopts once more
Not in any condition will they catch a glimpse of her heart, still sore
Like the sun that perpetually sets in the west
His repellent ways that constantly kept her at her best

Her knowledge surpasses yours, She knows better than you
What you have lost this time is more than just a glimpse of her view
Eradicate the hatred, perish the pernicious thought
And it was not too long before she forgot

She pens this down for you to visualize
The countless ways that you could actually compromise

The promotional exams are nearing and I am not prepared at the moment.
I just wish people would learn to trust and stop exacting revenge due to certain perceived notions.

Girls like you, why?

It's okay. This is merely being human. (:
We all learn one day.
Maybe not all.

I look forward to the December holidays! :D

Taking a walk after dinner and inhaling the refreshing air truly is revitalizing. A prayer tops it off. I am thankful for true friends.
I should do this more frequently. I should pray unceasingly. Thank you, Lord.

K, I copied this off. Haha! Twitter is so convenient. Yup, really grateful for everything the Lord has bestowed on me. The eventide breeze and scenery is simply uplifting in a queer manner. The air was strangely familiar but yet, it felt really foreign. I will do this frequently.

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I am really relieved that there is finally a closure. (:
It has always been my dream to settle every misunderstanding including those from years ago.

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Thanks Colin Chen.
I really feel the need to thank you.
Haha, you've really been an awesome buddy.
I don't usually do this but I am doing this now.
You spoke up for me and I can totally reply on you!
Haha and YOU'LL READ THIS SO I WANT MY PIZZA! :D

Hahaha, have fun in land of torture soon where your hair will be gone like the leaves of yesterday.

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PLEASE BE POSITIVE, EVERYONE!
Deprecatory remarks will only hurt you if you allow your impenetrable state to falter.
Thus, you must be strong and happy.

http://www.howtobehappy.org/happybook.pdf

It is a free E-book.
PLEASE FULLY UTILISE Great materials TO MAXIMISE PROFITS.

"“Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.”
-Jesus Christ, while hanging on the cross"

"Love is the strongest positive emotion. Love is what drives individuals to
noble deeds. Love allows the spirit to push on against incredible odds,
hardships and obstacles. Always love your fellow human beings and have
compassion, in spite of the frustrations you encounter."

“Cowards die many times before their deaths;
The valiant never taste of death but once.”
-William Shakespeare

"Remember, your tape wants you to repeat your past and will not give up
without a fight. Be patient. Be determined. Stick to your game plan.

Before going to sleep, talk to your tape. Tell it how you want to
respond in the future to the facts that upset you during the day. After a while,
your tape will help you in your battle to change your emotional response to
facts as you become less angry, and your anger lasts for shorter periods of
time."

THIS IS, THE BEST SOURCE EVER.
PLEASE READ THE LATER PARTS.
You may skip the intro.

I have quoted some parts.

"Fears are based on imagined scenarios that may or may not happen.
Most imagined fears never happen. Below are some quotes to illustrate this
point:
“The only thing we have to fear is fear itself”
-Franklin D. Roosevelt"

" I’m sure you have heard the expression that money can’t buy you
happiness. The reason this is true is because true and lasting happiness
always comes from within. Yet, many individuals depend on things outside
of themselves to make them happy. How about you? "

This does not mean that we do not pamper ourselves and spend money on luxury products. It merely means that we must take care of our emotional well being too instead of upholding the notion that purchasing costly products will make us glad.

" If you want to reduce or eliminate your dependency on things outside
of yourself to make you happy, structure your life so you can generate your
excitement and happiness from within. The great thing about internal
happiness is that it doesn’t cost you any money to acquire it and no one,
except yourself, can ever take it away from you.

How does one create internal happiness from within? It is very easy to
do if you think about it. If you want to be happy, all you have to do is stop
thinking about yourself and help others. The less you think about yourself
and the more you help others, the happier you will become. This is a fact.

Why do I make this claim with such certainty? The reason is because
your brain secretes positive chemicals corresponding to your positive
emotions. When you help someone, you are being generous with your time
and personal resources. You are being brave because you are not afraid of
losing out while you are helping someone else, instead of yourself. Plus, you
experience the feeling of love and well being when you help someone."

Yeah, I research on stuff like that.
Psychology is so interesting. :D

" Also, the more honest and positive you become; the less stress you will
experience in your life. Do you know how great it makes you feel when you
know that you always do the right thing and you are here to help others? If
you don’t know, I’ll tell you. It puts a big smile on your face and makes your
spirit glow inside. People can even see it in your eyes. "

"When these fears
entered my mind, I eliminated them by changing my focus from being
concerned about the future outcome of a shark attack that only existed in my
mind or imagination to one that I chose.
I chose to surround myself with a white light for protection from
sharks and swim in peace without fear. If you don’t know what the white
light is, raise your chemistry and you will experience it yourself. The white
light is a positive energy that can guide and protect you.

You can focus on the present task at hand, protection or help from God
or a Higher Power in the form of a white light, or you can clear your mind of
all thoughts by not thinking and allowing your subconscious to act on
instinct. All it takes is training until changing your focus becomes second
nature or instinctive."

YiLing had the most relaxing day ever in months.
The facial and the massage was awesome and I fell asleep because I was totally exhausted!
Tomorrow will be a resplendent day because the sun is perpetually bright.
HAHAHAHA.

The diamantez on my hair clasp thing is not obedient. They are falling off one BYE one. Haha, time to fully utilise my other clips and maiximize profits! Lol.

I LOVE STUDYING!
I love econs.
My teacher is a great teacher. Hahahhaa.
I may wanna take up econs in the future.

You may follow me @immaculatefancy on twitter.
It is locked.

Have a great day and always believe in yourself!
Tell yourself that YOU WILL SUCCEED.
YOU ARE ABLE TO DO IT.
YOU ARE CAPABLE.
Believe and put in the efforts.
You will near your goals.

"Faces of Dices"

Beings are like dices that are crafted with a smile
Thrown around like sloppy shirts that can't resist a shove
And sheets of scribbled rough papers that are thrown into a file
Illustrates how the one in confinement felt when thrown into a stove

Burning, decomposing and disintegrating into ash
It would definitely be stunning when fixed into a sash

Yiling Goh is taking part in "AJC POETRY COMPETITION" WITH A GRAND TOTAL OF 24 POEMS. HAHAHAHA. This is like writting in black and white- "Hi, My name is GYL and I am a bookworm." I think they will die reading that many poems.

LOL I JUST REALISED SOMETHING.
THERE IS AN UNINTENTIONAL PUN IN MY POEM.

Stranger

Impeccable complexion and gorgeous flowing hair
She touches up her made up face with extraordinary care
Pouting lips that are full of hope, Coruscating eyes that seem to glow
She ambles pass the unknown stranger and his gaze shifted low

Endless legs that greeted him enticed him at every angle
This enthralling stranger has ambushed him in a tangle
Her inviting gait was welcoming him this very second
And he did not even seem to mind that he had died in her hands

Lol. It makes sense now.
Like, the literal dying and also in the sexual sense.
COOL!

I HAVE TWITTER NOW.
HAHAHAHA. It is addictive.
Add me and see if I will accept you. :D

I'll give you a clue.
It is made up of two words and the first adjective is a synonym for perfect.
The second word is very boring and it is a synonym for like.

You can try http://thesaurus.reference.com/
It is my favourite website alongside thefreedictionary.com

Hence, you can learn new words and tell your "trophy" gf
"I adore you" because you're my idol.
"I fancy you" because you're so shiny.
"I admire you" because you're awesome.
"I appreciate you" for your actions are truly admirable.

instead of saying ILY every single day when you don't mean it.
And she is like probably awfully sick of you already because she has to play it nice and reciprocate by uttering the same clause.

Now, you can change your clause!

Moreover, You can tell her.
"You are flawless" because you have darn good skin!
"You are immaculate" because you're white like snow.
"You are complete" when you get laid.
(I kid.)

And a lot of other dumb adjectives for no girl will actually
TRUST a guy who says "YOU'RE PERFECT!"

LOL.
I am a high-tech nerd, you see.
I read online dictionaries.

I am laughing at my own posts.
Lolz.

Bye sweets! :D
GYL shall go running now.