I wish i could be over-confident all the time and convince myself that I can have everything I want, everyone I want. I succeed most times, but sometimes, I start to doubt myself. I know that I must eradicate all form of self-doubt, because that is the root to failure, and that is the sole cause of failure.

Everyone says I'm too confident, but that is a front. Usually, people flock to confident and self-assured people, so being sure of yourself is really important! Love yourself, and others will learn to love you. Good, or bad? You shall decide. It is subjective, and you shall make up your mind on your own.

what hate, what love! There is so much of both in the world, usually mixed up and presented as a whole, we don't even know what is real anymore. to each and everyone, Have you ever asked yourself this very simple yet complex question- ‘what is your true self?’ Every smile, every laugh, every frown, every remark you make, you are merely defending your very self and presenting you like as you showcase your masterpiece.

Nothing is real, in that sense.

Or course, that is basic and right in every aspect of the world. You wish to portray this immaculate, perfect, attractive, appealing version of you in front of people you wish to impress. After the novelty dies off, you begin to stop caring as much. Is this not what we experience in our daily lives?

I want to care so much, but even though novelty wears off, there are the remains. I still care a lot, just so much that I can't express, along with the rest of the globe. How far can i ever go? To what extend would I go to realize my dreams? How much am I willing to sacrifice for 'love'? What is love in the first place? A mere chemical reaction.

Wow, and they all make it sound way-too-much complicated and uncomprehensive with buckets of tears and showers of blood, squeals of joy, passionate pain, exuberantly screaming as they slice themselves up and make it sound like a whimsy about a happy-ever-afterlife fairytale.

This is so amusing. I could laugh as I read my own post. It does not really sound coherent.

Perhaps.

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I finished my chinese book. I am pleased.