be glad, be glad, be glad, remain calm, be glad, ignore everything else, be glad.
this post sounds meaningless and it has a bleak future.

essie i miss you! <3 <3 <3 you are sooo far away in vancouver and i know you'll never read this anytime soon but thanks for everything. words can't express my heartfelt thanks. i know everyone else that has shown concern cares too but sometimes, others should judge themselves before judging others! you don't like it when people judge you with their piercing look and sinister glare, and yet you do it to others. what irony. how the world contradicts itself. everything is a mess because everyone is a mess. see how what goes around comes around?

haha. i should be glad because people are just envious of what they can't have. yes, you said that the blog is meant to be a secret but not really one, because in fact, everyone is reading it. in other words, it is just an open secret, known to the world yet sealed with your lips, especially in front of you. how everything seems to go against everything else, and the world plainly feigns ignorance. we all know it, it is blatant, yet we choose to act like we don't, because 'ignorance' is bliss, even if it is merely artificial. how ludicrous. that's why it's called a joke. it's supposed to be funny!

NOT.