The Magnet Approach
Detachment is a skill that requires time to learn.
Now use it.
Use it and you will be free.
It is like the three wishes the fictitious genie can offer you.
It is the manipulation of the mind.
Use it, and use it well.
Empowerment.

I have to go now, I wish to continue but I am going out.
Prelims in 2 weeks! :D Shall study in school daily.

Okay, I am back! The YOG Football game is currently on television, with Haiti leading 1-0. There is about 20 mins left. I really hope Singapore will win though. This is one of the rare occassions where I actually watch football. I do understand that there is a challenge in every game but it is extremely commendable that they have made it this far! :D We will find out soon if our country wins.

Watched the YOG running at seven plus. It was amazing and the athletes have motivated me to run even more. The Kenyan female who won conquered 3km in 9:13. She is AMAZING! She is my role model haha! :D I shall google her later. I have to admit that I felt a bit less competent after watching her sprint. She is a good one and half rounds faster for my recent timing for sprinting 2 km. Haha I need to run more! Swimming yesterday was great.

Back to the subject of detachment. I have often found this topic of interest one that comes with lots of benefits as well as costs. The benefits are truly undeniable. You feel no sense of loss when you just let go of anything.

(Over ten minutes to go for the game. The Haiti goalkeeper was clearly wasting time and he got offered a yellow card. Oh my gosh they just wasted another "40 seconds", as quoted by the commentator by walking really slowly, It is not fair. ): The opposition keeps standing there and wasting time to maintain their win. I started watching for a long time and it's really unfair. 2-0 now. ): Penalty kick. My heart hurts now, only for Singapore! Well, the oppostition won.)

Anyway, back to the topic of detachment. I find it an extremely useful coping mechanism. Through countless experiences, there is a sort of numbness that I have attained. I then linked it to detachment. I was speaking to my friend today, and his account does justify why many of us choose to be detached. My possibly odd analogy of a magnet can explain it.

Say I am a magnet with two poles. If I wish to be attached to some earthly thing, I shall engage that part which attracts. Otherwise, just engage the other pole to repel and detach. I find this highly amusing. Hahaha. It does help though. I have always engaged this policy for most circumstances until last year for a bit and recently, where I let my surroundings dictate my mood to a certain extent. Darn it, it was not good.
For example, I felt pain for the people around me, I felt anger when they were angry and it was not pleasant. I felt the pressure from the place I am always in. I am not ever going to commit this folly again. Thank goodness for my experience last year that I have to be grateful for, for after that I have learnt to be partially detached. It is of course a good thing, for this world is one of impermenance anyway as we have learnt in Lit. Thank you, you GREAT and AMAZING SUBJECT!

OF COURSE, there is also the point that detachment may not have been achieved due to the sole publishing of this post, and also the need to engage this "mechanism" to cope. Well, we are of course humans and there are limitations to every solution. Hahaha. I find this highly amusing, sorry. I have no life now! I am a mugger. Well, then this calls for the typical YL solution of positive thinking. Let us adopt the best possible mindset as to why a certain event should occur, and twist it to suit your point of view. People may deem this delusion, but how can it be delusion if it is SOME EXTERNAL BEING TOTALLY UNINVOLVED in your experience deeming it delusion? Everyone will have a DIFFERENT set of memories. What right has that person have to interfere in your affairs? Sure, people do have the right to make their own decisions but as long as you believe in it with your own experience, for everyone will have a different view of what happened, (It is like as mentioned in Housekeeping, where Ruth speaks about how people have different "ghosts" and no one will ever have the same view of seeing things. It is through this where she comes to an acceptance. ) it is not delusion. And yes, there are signs of frustration that are obviously not hidden.

I need to run more. I am going to be as fast as that girl one day.
Yes and just live your happy sad lives, you insignificant people who do not dare to achieve what I want and dare to comment. Haha, sorry. (: PLEASE BELIEVE IN YOUR MENTAL STRENGTH.) Seriously, if you do not, you will just stand to lose like those who laugh. It is how the Haiti team won. They just formed their team six weeks ago before their first match.

Anyway, writing posts gives me this surge of emotions. At times I experience great happiness yet at times I feel depressed. Otherwise it is a combination of both. It is not yet eleven.

FEMALES NEED TO BE EMPOWERED!
Abandon the emotional attachment and engage the "magnet" approach instead! This way you get the best of both worlds. You get to experience joy as well as turn away when there is sorrow. Just tell yourself you are a robot. You can control yourself. You can, and you shall be empowered.

I am a magnet. I have dehumanized myself. Haha this is highly amusing. I love this phrase.

Now, back to embracing the human side of me.
I do love the text Wide Sargasso Sea a lot. I can really emphatize with Antoinette as well as Rochester, and I can fail to emphatize with them as well. You can feel a bit, and then you just back off. It is just to experience that surge of emotion for a few minutes and then you just wanna back off because you have to be strong and not let anything that does not concern you alter your emotions. You need control. Yes, that is just my aim. Writing is so fun. You get to argue with your mind. I feel like running now. I want to just run and run as in my Lucid dream which I miss so much cuz after my sixth one, I had a short seventh one but it was so short. It was probably for 30 seconds unlike the sixth one that went on until I grew sick of it.
I FELT SO POWERFUL. I had progressed in controlling my mind and used it to maximise my speed for sprinting. For the seventh one I tried flying and I did, but I did nothing much and then I remember there was silver infrastructure.

Last night I had a dream I went to speak to a random female stranger, but I knew it was a dream but I only knew it for a spilt second. I was in a park, near the beach. A lot of sand and I think there was a brewing storm and I chased after her to ask her how she trained. But no, I want my sixth dream back. I will have another Lucid dream again. The mind is really a scary thing. In my consciousness in the dream I could really change everything. It is as clear as reality and I will always remember how it is. Even the people are so real but I talked to them and told them they weren't real, which is really freaky because you know it is fake yet you are stuck in a dream world where you have such great control but yet people keep popping out and it is actually another aspect of your mind that is controlling the things popping out but you only have the aspect that controls what to change, not what is popping out. I am digressing hahahaha!

I hope I get a Lucid dream tonight again. I will use it to run and swim and fly and get all As, and grow taller. HAHAHHAHA BYE.