I'll make sure I'm the most important person in my life!
You're good, girl! Come on man.

"Are you ready to succeed?" a book I read.

I read this in a book! Haha kinda copying and pasting.
It's so damnnn hard sometimes but I learnt about the alternate reality
Concept instead of what negatives people usually think about. When you start letting less than
Positive things creep in, you go mad you know. Don't EVER, EVER, let anyone or any stranger
Creep into your life like that. One question, have you always felt that you were in control and have the
Ability to be happy? Most people might possibly say yes. Another question, have you ever felt such
Deep-Seeted anger against people who scream, rail at you, 'bad' employers, horrid partners, horrid friends, strangers etc and
Felt rising anger? Guess what. What I learnt was that you just let your ability to be happy and successful fall into
The hands of the wrong person. And people get stunned. No.

You choose it. People have false concepts or perhaps not entirely false concepts but they do have these notions engrained in their minds.

What if I told you that you are living in a 'dreamworld'? Everything you strongly believed in is all a construct.

Like how they believe, okay for example. (JUST an example)
1) guys love sexy women with no brains.
2) Models are damn arrogant and people roll eyes at them
3) smart people have no life.
4) only guys should propose.

Okay whatever. I just gave you some
Examples in life. True? What do you think? Maybe. That's the thing.
These are the ''Mental Models' that are given to us, FED to us like spoonfed milk to babies through advertisements, books, magazines.
Okay, so who told you that love is perfect when you start kissing in the sunkissed wind at a beautiful floral beach? TV.
Who told you that and what made you think that men love dumb women? The TV told you.

There are so many 'mental models' that are given to us, fed to us like poison.
But guess what, it's up to us to change that.

Basically, okay just imagine. You're out on a perfect, oh whatever you call that. Wonderful date? There is this stunning woman with gorgeous dark locks and a slim, curvaceous body. She is THE woman of YOUR dreams. First of all, why do YOU even have that idea that this lady is the one? Something told you. Your past experiences, your friends, those movies you watched. And then you bring her on a date to a chic place and she becomes your girlfriend. This works out, so your kind tells you this 'mental Model' works. And you try it on the next person, and it works again! But guess what, this might have happened due to the mental models you have had. Have you ever considered the fact that she fell for you due to the nice way you spoke to her? Or perhaps, she was fond of your
Meticulous ways or simply enjoys fine dining.

NOW, imagine that you bring the same Stunning, curvaceous girl to the same restaurant and she hated it. He would then imagine that this 'mental model' did not work. He would feel that this set of beliefs are gone. You might feel, hah, beautiful girls are such loose people and when this happens with the next girl, you would feel the same way. Guess what? 'Mental
model' again. Your mind constructs this.
If you meet another beautiful girl who gets together with you for a long time, this ''mental model' is gone. So guess what? Your 'mental model' has changed!

This means SOMETHING. The 'reality' and the 'dreamworld' we have so painstakingly constructed is in fact just a CONSTRUCT. It is not real. It's a construct. Like how okay. Another example. This is what they gave in the book. Imagine you hate dancing, but the guy you like
Is a hip-hop dancer, so you learn dancing and somehow you start to LOVE hip-hop. Or
Maybe you hate the movies, but your partner loves
It and somehow you end up liking it as well. Did you notice something? Your ''mental model' has changed again.
There is no specific 'reality'.

Which is why, have no expectations and when something unexpected happens, you become happier than usual. (:

Yup I know there are so many things that make me not as happy, but I wanna succeed,
I wanna make things right, make things good.
And there's so much stuff.
And love. We'll make that work.
Sometimes I can give up so much and all of us do,
We just do our best and that's it.
100% or nothing at all. That's good. Sometimes something is better than nothing.

A thought-provoking Excerpt from "Are you Ready to Succeed?" Read whether or not Success is important to oneself.

"Yet another contrast: Remember what you felt like when you had power, you were the boss, people
Looked up to you, took orders from you; or when you were popular. And contrast that Worldly feeling with the feeling of intimacy, companionship-- the times you thoroughly enjoyed yourself in the company of a friend or with a group in which there was fun and laughter. Having done this, attempt to understand the true nature of worldly feelings, namely self-promotion, self-glorification. They are not natural, they were invented by your society to make you controllable. These feelings do not produce the nourishment and happiness when one contemplates Nature or enjoys the company of one's friend's or one's work. They were meant to produce thrills, excitement and emptiness.

Then observe yourself over the course of a day or a week and think of how many actions of yours are performed, how
Many activities in that are uncontaminated by the desires for these thrills, these excitements that only produce emptiness, the desire for attention, approval, fame, popularity, success or power. And take at a look at the people around you. Is there a single one who is not controlled by them, hungers for them, spends every minute of his/her waking life consciously or unconsciously seeking them? When you see this you will understand how people attempt to gain the world, and in the process, lose their soul."

By focusing on positive and natural
Feelings in our work and life, we tend to succeed much more
positively, than when the soil we plant our tree in is self-glorification with negative repercussions to people around us. You've heard of flowers being cut and put in different coloured water, and what water you put in is, the flower turns out the same way. Same it is with our lives.

It's so exciting getting started again! Printing the pics for
My port, (make It fresh man!!) haha oh my gosh if you see it without knowing our modeling work, you'd think we were all
Mad if we print our crazily coloured professional
Quality pictures, and you'd think we were madly in love with ourselves. Hahaha
Ohhh the chronic knee Problem of a "long-distance"
Runner! Hahaha. Wow it's gonna be a full-time round of strength and artwork, skills and
Discipline. That's why we gotta be in perfect health mentally and physically. Woohoo.

Awesome
Running!!!!

Everything works out well eventually. (: yes There are not as happy things but it'll be great if you look logically and reasonably.
One thing I learnt is that life is 90 percent what you think of it and 10 percent of it is what happened.
Just be happy! (: There are so many stories about so many people
But we are all different. Yet we learn to live well in the same
World, office, environment, society. Maybe not all the time. There are wars, crime and pain,
But still there is general stability here. Yup so we learn to Care and understand better and
Things can work well for good if we let it. (: yup.

Today was good. Very interesting and enriching experience. Gonna continue working and exercising to be in the best shape for it!
And for my health and well-being. (:

I FEELLLLL AWESOMEEEEEE!! :D I feel so good about myself I've been running eery single day since Monday and I did 5.5 click today :D I missed
Running so much that I'm ignoring all the proper pauses and
I
Don't care I'm just going on and on. (: heh heh I'm gonna be the best runner again!!!!!
I'm gonna get my health back and be happy woohoo!!!!!!!! :D
I'm gonna get back into shape for pic work! Heh :DD
This time I might do full time alr. (: I'm not gonna let my opp go away again! I'll do it for a while first and I can do it! I'm nt gonna
Let anyone undermine me or put me down. Annoying. Haha come
On man. You're so superficial. Oh well. Humans. (: heh.
I hate liars. (: actually after a while I feel nothing already because you start to mean nothing to me after a while.
For a while I'll be mad heh (: all the best!

I'm really very sad. I miss my brother, he's in Thailand now for a mission trip and I barely speak to
Him usually. I miss so Many things. I miss the industry and I miss my pal and other things and so
Many things and I wanna do well. I barely show any sad emotions and that is so sad, and I will not allow
It to tarnish me. I'm happy and I will do well. (: I'll make sure I'm living to the fullest now and get any opportunity I Want! I can do it, because I'm the best and God gives strength. (:

NOW I KNOW why my bro and sis like to go to my room and lie On my bed last year whenever I got home super late. I'm going into my bro's room
Also and I realized I love them a lot. ): they were my main motivation last year even though I didn't spend so much time. ))):

I love that kinda life where I work sooo hard, I
Don't even have time to
Stop for a breath. My mind would be so in tune with work and
I would be so focused, and Alive. I love an environment whereby There are loads of exciting and excited people, just like my former company. Love it so much. (: Everything happens for a reason. Well, work is fulfilling now. I took a gap year for a reason, and it
Is annoying when people question me for rejecting the places I got offered, but I have to understand it
Is because they either care or have their own values as well.

I'm still human! Haha but I just wanna rant sometimes. Many times
I'm extremely nice and calm.

It is exciting to take pictures of scenery and work with various people When I do my leisure work. Picture work!
Again, I rejected the chance to do it full-time a while back because of
My former company. By the Way, I am pioneering a boutique playhouse now. Everything, again, happens for God's purpose and plan.
I get sick of things easily, honestly. Countless times when I am nt
Particularly fond of something, I still make
Myself do it. Responsibility. Yes, of
Course there are times When I am not, but still. (:

Yes, again as I was saying, I love it when I am so busy that I forget the people
Around me. Sometimes it is best to be free and
Without any human strings, but sometimes
We need a little Love. I'm becoming so human and caring again now that I'm out
Of the hectic lifestyle. Hahahaha. Need to dehumanize sometimes! I care for the less privileged of course, that, that is a must,
Always, always look after people
Who really need us. That's the correct thing to Do.

Like yeah and my life has developed over time. (: new people, new discoveries, new time, new year.
I can be very dependent and independent! Haha I feel like I'm a coin sometimes.
Hah.

I love it when I'm On bus *2 and I go the backseat at the left and I can see that the airconditioner's adjustable plastic gear is turned to block the cold air from reaching me. Every bus I take is usually like that. This shows you something. Little things you do, little things, really can make a difference.

I love interesting things.
Now.

Living for Christ Jesus is the most important thing.
I have done so many wrong
Things many times, that When I stood up for Him when people
Used His name in vain, I was ridiculed. Living really does matter.
Proper living. Upholding your beliefs.
I am not perfect but I have to live better.
It is hard sometimes, when one's interests and conflicts arise and battle against each other.

At times, I think I am too calm. But that is the most important thing. Happiness is
Of vital importance to me. Many things in life might affect the majority but at times
I am not afflicted. Be happy. (: happiness is like a gust of sweeping wind. It leaves you like a Chilling Gust of Wind and, and it leaves.
But that doesn't matter. (: I just need to be happy once. Once is all I need.
I like to look at happy things and laugh and glided butterflies. Butterflies die young, in comparison to human beings,
But their short-lived beauty does bring about much happiness. That phrase has taught me to appreciate little things in life.
Sometimes, people think I am much older and much younger than I am, because of the ways I adopt. We all need adaptability and happiness, for that is important.

Run, and be free. You are a free creature of spirit and warmth. :D The wind embraces you and caresses you softly as
You FLY through the cold, warm night air. (: I love running so much. My late night runs, my constant, my happiness. (:

I love my arts-y world and my colours and my pictures of art, frozen, still, captured, ta-da!!! :D Artwork. More artwork
Coming. It's a secret. ;) You won't know my life nor understand but if you may, you might marvel at it.
Only if you wish. People can be strange and not happy. (:

Get up and live. Move, move on and look forward. This was your choice and decisions in life can be simple or difficult, but it is just a matter of your own choice. Be happy, and be confident of what you do. Anything. Give your all. Be in THE PRESENT, and embrace it. Do your best, and you must measure the best. Take it easy and take it hard. Know to be self reliant. Be strong and
Be of a good courage. Stick up to it, and remain determined in your course of action. Let go of pride, fill yourself with goodness and openness. Feelings of purity. Be happy, and enjoy. Chill, and be glad! be glad in every course of action! Gahhhh! Human interaction! Too much and too little. Scary. Extremes. Madness. Sanity. Hmmmmm grass. Green? Not. Perspective! Woohoo.

It is about giving yourself chances,
and letting the flow of life go smoothly, unadulterated as
the sand white granular pebbles.
It is about finding yourself
in the creases of white cloth of perfect judgement,
where no judgement can make you fall.
Creases VANISH,
judgement can cease.

There is nothing as simple as blowing trees caressing
pure oxygenated air in the summer breeze.
Is it the other way round?
The summer breeze often warms me when I prance down
those teeny steps, oops, I fell
as lightly as flour into the crisp air.
Flour can evaporate like winter drops of honey-like dew in the
brand new morning.
Hold my five fingered structure and clasp it with yours,
a sense of unity and light-weighted joy.
Sprint into the open emerald field where
we will immerse in shades of green and beauty.
Beauty is yours.
Beauty is yours, to keep.

It's about giving yourself chances in life, I am glad. (: