The regimentation of my emotions is clearly a mess. ):
SIGH. I will make an effort to induce happiness into my life.
Qi mentioned the fact that I cause things to appear bleak even when they are fine.
Haha. This shall cease to exist from this point on. (:

AND SHE JUST CALLED ME. LOL.
We spoke for two minutes.
I shall continue my post. (:

Exuberance should fill our lives!
IGNORANCE IS BLISS!
Okay, so I sound really false and sarcastic, but the veritable fact perpetually applies to most circumstances.

I should forgive, overlook distinct matters and close an eye. (:

I have this annoying peculiarity of publishing my post after every sentence I type.
This vexatious habit of mine is getting on my nerves. Haha.

I am home alone. Hungry. Starving. I could devour two plates of food but I shall not do so.
I blog about inane matters. Read on. Free entertainment is awesome.

There I go again, engaging the pretty little black mouse and pausing at the appealing orange button, not halting to stop myself from clicking on that vicious looking thing every five seconds.
Gosh, I am darn bored.

Yes, this is how a delightful post should resemble.
Free from bothersome smiley faces that do little justice to the vehement annoyance evident in my previous post. (:

Yes, you should refresh my blog constantly because I do so every 5 seconds.

I would love to tear away the 'facade of indifference', but does actual caring really ameliorate any situation? It only affects you, cuts your veins, cause you to bleed like common people.
I do not like to feel sometimes. It makes me glad. How ironic.

Yes, this is a blissful post. (: It should be dipped in gaiety. ((:

They are home. I have need to leave soon. (:
And do my homework.

This post shall be purposeful.
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The message yesterday (YF's 36th anniversary) was genuinely one that enlightened me, resulting in the uplifting of my downcast mood.

'The way we speak affects the way people think of Christ.'

I am not a good testimony at times. I apologise.

We should strive fervently to uphold God's name and live for Him.
I must watch the way I carry myself.
I am extremely apologetic for the instances whereby I fail to do so.
I am human, I am weak.

The analogy concerning the porcelain vase was one of utmost importance.
We must be without wax.
Spoilt and imperfect vases are filled with cracks and passed of as a vase of superior quality.
The cracks become more visible along with time and the true character is exposed.

Character is vital.
Be cautious of the way you live.

Romans 16:19
For your obedience is come abroad unto all men.
I am glad therefore on your behalf: but yet I would have you wise unto that which is good, and simple concerning evil.

Think good thoughts.

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I will continue another time.
I have to leave.

Do not take this seriously!
Read with an open mind.

Do not assume. Clarify. Thanks.

I am living in bliss now, just listen to my rantings. :D LOL.

Separate issues. (:

Issue.1
I need to care in the correct and politically impeccable manner.
I am supposed to? (:
I cannot accept the fact that people dig for faults in others when no one is perfect.
Yes, I am not immaculate. (:

Wait, you are? (:

I am not going to make an endeavor to please the world.
I will only ameliorate my standards and polish up the flaws.
They are completely different things and totally dissimilar.

You have not seen imperfect yet.
LOL.

If you are not all that is listed, it could be slightly possible that you may possess a higher level of understanding and compassion. But you do not.
I may be uptight and perhaps get enraged at the 'slightest' manner, but do you not? (:

I am utterly sick of the false attempt to tie everyone up, throw them into a bucket of sunshine yellow and christen the ludicrous mess 'happy'. The inferior paint starts to peels and the cracks are undeniably visible. You will see. (:

I am sick of the smileys. (:

It is a haphazard attempt to make the post appear lively and vivacious. ((:
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Issue.2
And yes, I do uphold an unwavering and steadfast notion about what I have seen.
And you would still rather I did.
I can choose to disregard and discount your lies. (:
This will resolve all issues! :D

Insecurity is the antecedent of all lies.
No, that is you. (:
Thanks. You have a clear advantage.
You can attain whatever you relish for and plead terribly in fervent expectation of a result remotely likening to your desire.
Your bad. ((:
You pathetic. HAHAHA!
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I am appeased now. :D

To omit unpleasantness and to better oneself rather than to languish in the faults of others.

THANKS DOMMO! :DDDD
You have been an awesome brother and wondrous listener since forever that veritably listens to me.
HAHAHA!

THANKS VINCEY! :DDDD
LOL. (: I will listen to those words of wisdom!
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HAHAHA OKAY I WILL BETTER MYSELF NOW.

I must be addicted to blogging.
COMMENT PEOPLE! :D
People patronise purefancy but they do not comment.
Okay thanks. (:

I like immaculatefancy better, but nevermind. It is mine. You can't have it.
Anyway it has been converted into some random blog with one post in an attempt to rid useless clothing.
HAHA.

The media is veritably an indispensable source whereby one utilizes it to gain benefits.
Blogs are just yet another medium which people engage to elevate personal performance and boost fame. I learnt that in economics today. Haha. We have known it all along, just that we do not maximize usage of available resources.

CHEER IS AWESOME. IT CAUSES ME TO FEEL LIKE I WANT TO STUDY.
How ironic. Haha. (:

I love hugs. Hug me today!

Too bad we cannot have the best of both worlds. (:
I need to know.
I need to run. I eat like a monster.
2 plates of food, a hot dog bun and chocolate flavoured pocky.
LOL.

My stamina has rapidly deteriorated after my two operations. Sigh.
I need to attain it back as soon as possible and emerge victorious. (:

My siblings are locked out of the house currently.
I have no key. My sister is yelling for me. Danggggggggggggg.
AHHHH.

OKAY THERE IS THE KEY NOW. FINALLY. YAY.
Sigh, I need more time.
I have limited options.
My hands are tied.
Free me.

To Let Go

Coruscating stars and the splendid night sky
The majestic view that we behold as we lie
The apparent barrier we seem to have obliterated
You were right from the dawn,
It was all fated

We endeavor assiduously to please others.
No one is ever satisfied. Haha. It actually tickles me. (:
We perpetually see guys who blatantly stare at other gorgeous girls whilst their annoyed little self-proclaimed princesses stand there like a poor estranged kitties and look sad with their forlorn plastered eyes. How amusing.

Free entertainment anyone?

You see, NO ONE, and I mean not at all, will ever be contented!
That explains the sin, the guilt, the abuse, the extra-marital affairs, the robberies, the rape, the torure, the grievous hurt!
Gee. I abhor this.
And men are far too easy to manipulate.
That is why we should abstain from harmful activities.
Arm yourselves with a penknife. Haha, a pair of scissors takes up too much space.

I play the part of the meanie. Too bad! Your bad. :DDDD

They say that I appear nonchalant about everything and I am this unyielding force that requires no support. Could that actually be true? (:
Your guess.

I wanna abolish awkwardness. Sigh. When both parties share the analogous mutual understanding that is required to diminish the uncomfortable feeling, things should naturally fall into place. It is the norm. Haha. I should morph into this unfeeling creature that knows no shame and I will be able to proceed with life with an apathetic approach.
Wait, I am not. HAHA.

My dad said that I was a bimbo, a dumb blonde some time ago. Tsk.

MY FAVOURITE ONE. hahaha, she's hot okay.
I LIKE. :D

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I will ask you one day, I will. (: Like I mentioned in the past, I don't bite. (:
Sighhhhhh. ):

The analogy engaged by the speaker today was really an impeccable one in illustrating the fall of mankind. It is an example utilizing the a veritable method of trapping your prey evident in the land of ice. It is told of an Eskimo and a polar bear. (or wolf?)

Firstly, the Eskimo coats the blade of knife with blood, waits for it to freeze. He proceeds to coat it with another layer and does the analogous thing by waiting for it to freeze again. He continues his taxing task until the entirety of the blade is not visible. The Eskimo then plants his bait onto the heartless icy ground.

The prey comes. The polar bear licks at the treat delightfully, obviously pleased by the delectable blood. (ew. ) It continues licking, afraid at first but it gets more daring as it further ventures and realises how pleasantly appealing it is. It does so vigorously, unaware of the deep cuts the knife blade has inflicted on its tongue. It is bleeding profusely but it does not have the knowledge that it is feeding on its own blood.
I shall spare you the gruesome details.

The polar bear dies.
Haha.

This is like sin. We are engulfed by our iniquities as we perpetually live in sin.
This is what is happening to us.

continued on 24 march
We are falling deeper and deeper into this pernicious trap and before we actually are aware of it,
we are already lodged in. It is comparable to sinking sand. Get out of it now. Snap out of it.

I must be THE master of inactivity.
I resolved to actually carry out productive work the previous day and the resultant was fruitless sleeping and my undertaking of the role of a couch potato for the entirety of yesterday. ): sigh. I am morphing into a lazy pig. haha. (:

Today is Day Two of locking myself up at home.
Okay, I need air. Darnx tired.
I shall endeavor to complete my homework in the near future. :D
I will attain ultimate success.
I shall continue to psycho myself by reading the motivational paper that I pasted on my impeccable white wall.

AHHHHH. I WANNA SCREAM. I have a fervent desire to travel to the vast and enchanting green fields of bk to vent my frustration away. It's okay, I'll be fine in the end.
You may think that I did not acquire the knowledge that I am not supposed to be aware of but you are incorrect.

Even up to this present day, there will never be one that is as exceptionally appealing and as extraordinary as you. Your inexplicable character simply draws me towards you.
I simply adore you.

How unfortunate. Too bad you will leave anyway. (: That's okay.
Regardless of what the future comprises of, life has to go on.
I have learnt. The future can wait and things will eventually fall into place.
I shall treasure what I have now. (:
I will. :D

Pardon my erratic behavior.

HAHAHAHA. okay I need to study.

Anyway, people who perpetually bitch about others really annoy me, especially if they are not part of another person's life. Thanks. (: Get a life. Channel that energy to shed some weight since you are not exactly or at all the most attractive thing. :D THANK YOU. :DDDDD

MEL MEL HUGX! :DDDD
I love MEL MEL :D



THIS IS, LIKE AWESOME. REALLY. WATCH IT.
Wait for it to load or something. (:


This is cool too.

I am remarkably exhausted.
Stayed up till past three this morning to talk to my two darlings. :DDDD
Class outing was simply awesome!
We cycled at Pasir ris park and immersed ourselves in the park's splendor and later concluded with dinner at Downtown East. :D

haha, I found this one picture.
We were supposedly acting cute.
hahahah mel chan looks so adorable.
Look at the two theatre mask resembling creatures behind! LOL.


I'll attempt to get hold of more pictures when I do have the time!

Aiding the residents of Lions Befrienders today was particularly memorable.
I was in charge of the canned foods. Sales were great. We did not know have prior knowledge of the location of the organization and we must have covered at least 4 miles attempting to seek the place. LOL. I feel particularly healthy! :DDDD I love walking! :D
And, I am extremely tired. ):
I love interaction. LOL.

SIGN UP FOR COMMUNITY SERVICE TODAY! The resultant is the fruit of your labor. (:
Always bear in mind that you are lending aid to evoke a smile on another person's face and not merely to attain mindless hours on your card.
I have learnt a lot this year. Thanks. (:

I have not completed my work.
I have not even started.
I will lock myself at home for the next three days. (:
I will be anti social. heh.

SIGHHHHH. ): I hate opportunity costs.
You cannot perpetually acquire what you want to achieve.
I can't have the best of both worlds.
By getting hold of a desired item, you are missing out on an indeterminate chance of attaining someone better. darnx it.

I esteem people who can actually hold my gaze, prolong it without intimidating me or turning me off with suggestive implications but actually look intensely and fervently into my eyes. By that, I do not mean staring. That is a complete violation of THE rules. Unanimously, it is the total opposite and an action that is so darned attractive and captivating. hahahahaha sighhhhhh.

HOWEVER, I still uphold the notion that those who would actually shy away when they chance upon your eyes are really adorable. lol. It is appealing in a disparate way.

I must leave the past. Perhaps, withhold it till the future.

Alluring

The enchanting smile and its ineffable allurement
My heart skips a beat and I gaze at every turn
The insignificant moves, the ones that cause me to smile
It would be splendid if you could just stay for a little while

The nights spent ambling across the pastures are substituted with thoughts of you
Only your desired presence illuminates the gloomiest view
One tiny smile, one thoughtless move
Would cause the ice queen to be touched and tear

THIS IS SO HOT! darnnnnn coooolx. I LOVE THIS. hahahaha :D
Too bad the modeling industry here is almost non-existent.


THIS IS AWESOME! LOVE THE HEELS! :DDDD



The skirt is awesome!



For an indescribable reason, I am drawn to this picture.
I still prefer Jessica Stam's previous look.

I love MY SCHOOL!
AJC is great. SEND YOUR KIDS THERE!
You will be in for an indelible experience that will sustain you for a whole lifetime!
It is a conducive environment with negligible distractions. :D
Approach me for more details. I'll be most pleased to fill you in.
After all, the ultimate aim of most people is to attain an unsurpassable grade and the culmination of two years of fruitful studying will assist you in achieving that.

Time was

The melodious chirping birds and the delectable springtime breeze
The sounds of joyous laughter that momentarily caused my heart to freeze
Time was when it was once upon a spring with you
Your timeless beauty that none can surpass, and if only
You were still here to share the view

The intoxicating scent of nostalgia greets me as I intake the delightful air
Pleasantly refreshing yet my heart is already stripped bare
Gone are the days of comforts, compensated with a lifetime of despair
The engulfing rain welcomes me, it is more than I can bear

Time was when it was once upon a spring with you
Your timeless beauty that none can surpass, and if only
You were still here to share the view

If only, You were still here to share my view

Okay, I am sorry. I feel best composing dull poems. (: HAHAHA.
TOMORROW! CLASS OUTING! Also, the interview. (:
I feel deeply affected every time I create a despressing poem.
Perhaps it is the resultant of contributing my emotions to my piece of work.
Perhaps in due time, I may actually consider publishing a book. LOL. That would be hilarious.
I'd rather produce a fashion magazine. Darn coolx! :D

As the neglected bones of yesterday and scattered autumn leaves,
I hope you waste away

Nah, not really.

Note to me: I must compose happy poems.

Met up with Jolyn yesterday at YJ for the funfair. I MISS YOU BABEX!
It was awesome. :D THANKS! <3
I am in an unprepared state of despondency.
I yearn to flee from it.
I miss my MEL MEL. ):
'A free hug that equates to a lifetime warranty of hugs that comes free following the first!' :D

To You

To yearn and not to pine
To care and not to bother
To love and not to adore
To escape when I need it all

To miss and not to crave
To want and not to need
To ignore and not to acknowledge
To tear when I eventually fall

Where were you throughout it all.

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Hopeless

The captivating stars, the coruscating infant eyes
Shimmering and twinkling magically as he lies
Your delectable smile that drew me for a little while
The enthralling facade yet deceptive somewhat
I failed to comprehend

The entrancing personality, my mind is a blank
The outright lies and the indecisiveness
Throw it all aside, He is all that matters
It is alright if he is appeased,
my heart is all that he shatters

The obligatory promises, he perpetually breaks
The thoughtless actions and its countless takes
Put it all behind, as long as he endeavors
But when I awake he is gone from my side
For how long will I put up with this internal fight?

The captivating stars, the coruscating infant eyes
Shimmering and twinkling magically as he lies
For the umpteenth time, He is all that matters
It is alright if he is appeased,
my heart is all that he shatters

He departs again, leaving remnants of his vexation behind
discombobulation greets me and he destructs my mind
You are Hopeless.

HAHAHAHA. okay i've got to go I will create joyful poems another time. (:

Leaves of yesterday

I detest your abhorrent ways, I hope that you will decay
As the neglected bones of yesterday and scattered autumn leaves,
I hope you waste away
Your demeaning terms, the heart wrenching screams that greet me each hateful day
Like the hummingbirds of the alluring pastures
I long to escape,
When shall I have my say?

The countless attempts to forgive, withal, I yearn to leave
Disappointment sinks in time after time
I should have learnt by now, it should have penetrated in somehow
Nothing will alter your mind

Leaves of yesterday evaporate away, adulterating the halcyon breeze
The surrounding air shall never be fresh, contaminated by your spurious pleas
Your condescending peepers, shall never thirst, nor set itself upon my contemporary ways
But the leaves of yesterday, the work of your isolation and distaste
Shall depart with you one day

Why are my poems all so darn sad.
When I read through my poem, I felt like tearing.
How about you?