I had an amazing week of physical and mental training!
Definitely, the road to success or adequate preparation is no walk in the park.
Strong mentality coupled with undying persistence is a prerequisite! Hahaha!!! :D
Long distance running and vigorous swimming is the best.
I just came back from my 5 km run! It's amazing to run at night, because the air is relatively fresh.
I witnessed the gazes of amazed passerbys who wonder what a young girl is doing, running so late at night.
I do occassionally meet fellow "runners" at such a timing. Definitely, we must be spread out throughout Singapore.
I usually meet loads of people who run at eight thirty, but rarely at eleven plus.

I witnessed a building devoid of light. There must be a blackout at that building!
Imagine the darkness enveloping its residents. It must be pretty terrifying, but I've gone quite used to darkness! I loved to
Not turn on the lights deliberately When I was fourteen or fifteen. I just loved to make myself accustomed to places without darkness
Because I knew that nature had no electricity! Haha I wanted to be close to nature.
And so I had no fear of darkness.

Today was great anyway! It was a really fruitful conferece. (:

It is definitely no easy road for the preparation towards success in this pageant anyway, but it definitely an amazing experience! Will share more soon. I am extremely excited!!! Each day is a revelation and I have learnt so much, even though it's been a short while only.
Looking forward to learn all I can! (: student mentality!

I noticed something, and that is the flames of a mere candle and be very deceiving. Here I am, sitting at the sidelines and enjoying the husky midday air, accepting and taking in the noises of the general public. Whispers and hushes and hugs and touches. I was part of their life briefly. I have passed by so many strangers and we were all part
Of each others' lives for a moment.
I shared an umbrella with a stranger again. The flames of a mere candle can be very deceiving. We can't see much. It's too tiny and it's lit soooo gently. Too gently.

The flames can be
Fanned out
Too easily. Yet its beauty stems from the fact that it is short-lived, it is transient. It moves away along
With the air.

(: contemplative moods are heavy!!! NOO NOO NOO! haha
I shall share with you about 
Exciting things (okay.. So perhaps this is exciting to me, but it might or
Might not apply to Others.)

The special proj we have is coming along so well! I'll share with the rest what it's about in a few weeks! :D gonna be extremely memorable and it will definitely be a fruitful journey!
It's extremely prestigious and it will be an excellent experience. (: 

I love the good night texts, the little
Bits of concern, the tight grasps, the holding of hands.
Most of all, I love the warmth.

Actions speak Louder than words. (:

I'm going to devote this post to my favorite Kangen Water.
Basically, the reason why I am doing is so is because I believe the importance
Of health, ESP in the things which we allow into our bodies.

Okay first of all. Kangen water originated from Japan. I'll just Share the things I know. It's damn important
Cause it's alkaline, ionized and is MICROCLUSTERED. Basically the molecules are extremely tiny so
I can drink litres without feeling full. It's a MEDICAL DEVICE in Japan and used in countless hospitals, approved by the health ministry there.
They give it to Cancer patients.
Why alkaline? Cause research shows that people
Who die of cancer have bodies 100 times MORE ACIDIC than normal
Human being samples. What does this mean? Cancer cells
Thrive in acidic environments. Moreover, when we are created, we grow in the mother's womb in
Alkaline solution. Noticed how young babies ever were so clean and healthier?
I BELIEVE IN SCIENCE. Logic. I watched the real life Experiments and
That's why I drink PH 9.5 Kangen water. It's really changed my life man.

Like I Ran 16 KM in one week when I didn't run in ONE YEAR, for my physique for the prestigious project. thats crazy. Either
I have a really strong mind like that of a professional athlete or my mentality had been complimented by
Body's new alkaline state. The oxygen bubbles I can see in my water is absorbed so damn quickly
Cause it's so damn good. Honestly, whatever you feed yourself helps.
Seriously. It's like placing a white paper, cliche, okay maybe putting a sponge in
A pail of red water. do you think the sponge will turn red?

OBVIOUSLY. You are LIKE a sponge. What you drink is what you are!!!

And they use it in Germany as an approved medical device too and I use the levelluk machine for my face too.
They have a ph 5.5 to ph 6 water called beauty water.
Skin is originally acidic, so that restores it to its original state. (:

I'm such an avid blogger now.

Anyway, I'm glad things are much better between us. <3

"Her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining.
Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying."

It's honestly not about physical beauty alone if you examine this sentence with detailed inspection.
It's about the confidence that shines through, and lack of obsession because you are comfortable in your own skin.

Yeah manz.

Great time with Rachel. (:
Anyway, I'll be involved in a prestigious Secret project! Hahaha look out for it soon! :D
I'm sure the modeling experience would aid in it, as well
As the communication skills I Have gathered from Appco.
Definitely, it would be amazing.
Meeting people would be a great thing as well.
My interview for the same slot in SMU next week! Haha I'm gonna ace it
And show my gap year was worth it, and I'll get the same place again. (:
I can do it.

By the way, my posts about the stories and examples for the ''mental models' were those I read in the book!
Not talking about any incident. It's about generally the people in your life. Cuz I read my post and I realized that.
Woo kinda sleepy. I'm awake!!!! Hah!

Lol it's 3.38 a.m. Hmm I know things aren't as easy for us but we'll make it work eventually. Have faith.

Going a little less than sane with the Uni Apps for this year,
applying for the Same Unis I got accepted into last year,
and the exact same courses I got accepted into.
LOL. I still like the same things huh.
I love my gap year! :D

I'll make sure I'm the most important person in my life!
You're good, girl! Come on man.

"Are you ready to succeed?" a book I read.

I read this in a book! Haha kinda copying and pasting.
It's so damnnn hard sometimes but I learnt about the alternate reality
Concept instead of what negatives people usually think about. When you start letting less than
Positive things creep in, you go mad you know. Don't EVER, EVER, let anyone or any stranger
Creep into your life like that. One question, have you always felt that you were in control and have the
Ability to be happy? Most people might possibly say yes. Another question, have you ever felt such
Deep-Seeted anger against people who scream, rail at you, 'bad' employers, horrid partners, horrid friends, strangers etc and
Felt rising anger? Guess what. What I learnt was that you just let your ability to be happy and successful fall into
The hands of the wrong person. And people get stunned. No.

You choose it. People have false concepts or perhaps not entirely false concepts but they do have these notions engrained in their minds.

What if I told you that you are living in a 'dreamworld'? Everything you strongly believed in is all a construct.

Like how they believe, okay for example. (JUST an example)
1) guys love sexy women with no brains.
2) Models are damn arrogant and people roll eyes at them
3) smart people have no life.
4) only guys should propose.

Okay whatever. I just gave you some
Examples in life. True? What do you think? Maybe. That's the thing.
These are the ''Mental Models' that are given to us, FED to us like spoonfed milk to babies through advertisements, books, magazines.
Okay, so who told you that love is perfect when you start kissing in the sunkissed wind at a beautiful floral beach? TV.
Who told you that and what made you think that men love dumb women? The TV told you.

There are so many 'mental models' that are given to us, fed to us like poison.
But guess what, it's up to us to change that.

Basically, okay just imagine. You're out on a perfect, oh whatever you call that. Wonderful date? There is this stunning woman with gorgeous dark locks and a slim, curvaceous body. She is THE woman of YOUR dreams. First of all, why do YOU even have that idea that this lady is the one? Something told you. Your past experiences, your friends, those movies you watched. And then you bring her on a date to a chic place and she becomes your girlfriend. This works out, so your kind tells you this 'mental Model' works. And you try it on the next person, and it works again! But guess what, this might have happened due to the mental models you have had. Have you ever considered the fact that she fell for you due to the nice way you spoke to her? Or perhaps, she was fond of your
Meticulous ways or simply enjoys fine dining.

NOW, imagine that you bring the same Stunning, curvaceous girl to the same restaurant and she hated it. He would then imagine that this 'mental model' did not work. He would feel that this set of beliefs are gone. You might feel, hah, beautiful girls are such loose people and when this happens with the next girl, you would feel the same way. Guess what? 'Mental
model' again. Your mind constructs this.
If you meet another beautiful girl who gets together with you for a long time, this ''mental model' is gone. So guess what? Your 'mental model' has changed!

This means SOMETHING. The 'reality' and the 'dreamworld' we have so painstakingly constructed is in fact just a CONSTRUCT. It is not real. It's a construct. Like how okay. Another example. This is what they gave in the book. Imagine you hate dancing, but the guy you like
Is a hip-hop dancer, so you learn dancing and somehow you start to LOVE hip-hop. Or
Maybe you hate the movies, but your partner loves
It and somehow you end up liking it as well. Did you notice something? Your ''mental model' has changed again.
There is no specific 'reality'.

Which is why, have no expectations and when something unexpected happens, you become happier than usual. (:

Yup I know there are so many things that make me not as happy, but I wanna succeed,
I wanna make things right, make things good.
And there's so much stuff.
And love. We'll make that work.
Sometimes I can give up so much and all of us do,
We just do our best and that's it.
100% or nothing at all. That's good. Sometimes something is better than nothing.

A thought-provoking Excerpt from "Are you Ready to Succeed?" Read whether or not Success is important to oneself.

"Yet another contrast: Remember what you felt like when you had power, you were the boss, people
Looked up to you, took orders from you; or when you were popular. And contrast that Worldly feeling with the feeling of intimacy, companionship-- the times you thoroughly enjoyed yourself in the company of a friend or with a group in which there was fun and laughter. Having done this, attempt to understand the true nature of worldly feelings, namely self-promotion, self-glorification. They are not natural, they were invented by your society to make you controllable. These feelings do not produce the nourishment and happiness when one contemplates Nature or enjoys the company of one's friend's or one's work. They were meant to produce thrills, excitement and emptiness.

Then observe yourself over the course of a day or a week and think of how many actions of yours are performed, how
Many activities in that are uncontaminated by the desires for these thrills, these excitements that only produce emptiness, the desire for attention, approval, fame, popularity, success or power. And take at a look at the people around you. Is there a single one who is not controlled by them, hungers for them, spends every minute of his/her waking life consciously or unconsciously seeking them? When you see this you will understand how people attempt to gain the world, and in the process, lose their soul."

By focusing on positive and natural
Feelings in our work and life, we tend to succeed much more
positively, than when the soil we plant our tree in is self-glorification with negative repercussions to people around us. You've heard of flowers being cut and put in different coloured water, and what water you put in is, the flower turns out the same way. Same it is with our lives.