GOOD MORNING WORLD! It is seven plus in the morning on a Sunday. Haha I AM EXTREMELY HAPPY haha it's quite funny, so happy that I wanna wake up and post this. Hahaha I CONQUERED THE DISTANCE FROM MY PLACE TO AJ AND BACK LAST NIGHT. :D ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. YOU CAN DO IT! Heh. :D I shall now proceed to engage google map to find out the total length. I estimate it to be 9km. Okay fine, this may seem like nothing to marathon runners, and may seem like a lot to regular people, but it is all about perspective. To me, it is about achieving your goal and always going on no matter what. :D I am really happy because this is the longest distance that I have ever gone before. I haven't taken part in any marathon or highly publicized races. I shall do so in the future. (: Remember to believe in yourself and think only of the positive!
When I ran, I thought about how nice the air was and how I can run faster when I tell myself that. It really works. Place your focus on how you're enjoying it instead. It comes to a point where the very sound of your breath actually spurs you on to run faster and lighter. I FELT LIKE I WAS FLYING. Have you ever experienced that marvelous state where you felt as light and fluffy as a single feather? Oh, it feels so good! HAHA! Do attempt it! Remember, only feed yourself with positive thoughts. Your brain will secret positive chemicals only when you do that, and it is then where your body is able to carry out planned activities the best way.

YOU CAN DO IT, FUTURE NS DUDES Hahaha.

Haha, okay I went to use the map to calculate the distance. I was right! It is almost 9km. (: Well, to many people who run 10 kilometres everyday, it is merely a routine. For me, my usual is less though so I am really happy. :D Hahaha! Two more papers! You can do it!

Wow I just read my post. I do seem like an awfully happy person. Haha.
Okay, I wanted to say poem time but I need to bathe and get ready for Church now. Goodbye! (:

PART ONE IS OVER! :D I am extremely glad. Well, I shall now proceed to bore you with my mundane, or perhaps rather exciting life (to me at least). Haha, History has seriously been amazing. I would grow really fond of it and then hate it for being so darn challenging at times. After a while though, or in this case, a long while, (i.e. 2 years) I finally love it. And then it is over. Like, poof, with that hand action I like to do. Southeast Asian History and International History, my poor little smudged and severely abused notes have now lost their value in helping me in advancing in this education highway. Lol, what else do you call it.

YOU CAN DO IT! YOU CAN DO IT!

Well, anyway. We shall all enjoy this process of learning so we will do the best in our mission to attain the best results. Remember to enjoy it!
I will still miss my class ever so dearly. :D Hello, classmates! I recall the first time, when I saw the class at the Basketball Court last year. I was thinking, "What a bunch of weirdos.", because everyone was simply so different! And then there was all this drama. Was speaking to Rachel after dinner and yes, indeed, our class is so beautiful simply because of our diversity. I have NEVER met such a wide range of interesting people in my life, and I highly doubt I ever will again, at least not in another setting like this. Outspoken, artistic, quirky individuals, each with their own set of contrasting values, yet all with one common trait, which is care. Ahhh. :D
37/09 :D

There is a motive behind every action, and that very motive is the key thing that spurs us to commit a certain action. Now, whether or not that motive has a good or bad agenda attached to it is what determines the outcome and response.

Let us say, what is my motive for running? An expected response from a person who is attempting to look good in front of others would say the benefits of losing weight. A health-conscious person would very well declare her motive as being healthy and because she loves the idea of being fit. Now, which one of them would generate a better outcome? Definitely, I would say the one with the "better" motive. The explanation would be that with a "better" motive or in this case, a propelling force in mind, the person would have more incentive to carry out the action that would generate an expected outcome.

NOT ALL motives would drive you on long enough for you to endure this imaginary path you are traversing. Do you have the right motive? Do you have the best motive?

What about other things, such as murder or rape. What is your motive behind that? I have this thing about me, where I would at times, whenever I am alone on the bus, look out there and pretend I am that young kid at the stop waiting for the bus. I would imagine myself to be young and just this wallpaper thing. And then at times I would, when I read about certain murders, place myself in the victims' shoes or the criminals' shoes. I used to imagine myself being tortured like the victim and I would cry for the victim. That was last time. Yeah, I am weird. Anyway, I can but only imagine and recreate that scenario in my mind. Is that really the thing that took place?

Every single human being has a different way or interpreting the SAME HISTORICAL event. No, it is not the story. I am speaking about the event. How we interpret it is our story. We all have stories. Stories. How reliable can these stories be then? They are most reliable to ourselves. I can have a story. He can have a story. We went through the same historical event but we have different stories. Shey may have been with say a friend, and we were happily laughing about lollipops, and say Shey's story would be that- Shey has found a new friend and they are getting closer. His story may be that he just had a silly day laughing about frivolous things. Well, this analogy is meant to sound a little ridiculous. I could very well have used a more solemn situation but this humour I have engaged merely belittles the value of stories.

That is why the true value of stories do not matter unless reciprocated. Do not magnify the value of stories (memories) unless you are sure it is worth the time at all. Take the safe route.
Of course, my post is about motives. My motive is to brainwash you, of course and to declare my view about the lack of value of "stories". Now, if a person were to psychoanalyze my post, I dare predict that the person would judge me as one who is attempting convincing herself to not care so as to protect herself. Also, what are the other motives? ;) Then again, there is irony because I just mentioned that stories are different in the eyes of everyone. The person may view it this way and it is correct in her eyes but how about mine? Therefore, our stories are as mentioned only most reliable to ourselves and hence worthless. Lol. This is so interesting. Hahaha.

"Tunnel Boring Machine"

Imagine the Tunnel Boring Machine driving a hole into the insignificant ground
that we all stand on and live on and do our daily things
and never care about
And then one day, suddenly -
from underneath,
It emerges.
For all the harm we have done to this harmless world,
For all the misuse, abuse, torture, brutal bludgeoning of all things fine,
It stands tall and booms at you, every single one of you
And screams and booms and falls straight on every single flat one-dimensional creature.
The Tunnel Boring Machine speaks.

Hello. I am an Arts student, but I am not gonna use flowery language here. Yes, indeed posts are meant to be written during times of less-than-happy moments and contemplation. (I am writing this so as to finalize thoughts and to feel better about it.)
Hi, my friend who used to like me (not a classmate) not too long ago, this is for you. (Yeah, actually I wanna make you feel bad and read this, haha and I hope that you learn that betrayal is not a good thing! This post is about forgiveness and moving on. (: And yes, you will probably only visit my blog and read this if you still feel bad, otherwise you won't. I want you to read it, that is the point of this composition. Yes, I have dedicated a post to you, be shocked! Lol.) This is not a new issue (not old either), just that I have forgotten about it for probably a couple of months. The internet is a great source to confirm suspicions (I WAS RIGHT about you guys! Haha sorry can't help it.) actually, and when you are able to be happy for the one who has betrayed you, it is truly then that you have forgiven the person. It is during periods like this that you learn to place less faith and emotion in human beings romantically, that being a good thing. This is because you learn that romantic love should not be priority in life. I feel that my priority really is my career and family, which good academics would ensure. Of course, there was never really any real relationship, except I like typing this out, to finalize things and to feel good about myself (Author's intention.)

Of course, I do not deny the initial anger, and great disappointment, (and all that comes with that) especially during the moments where real emotions were invested, and when I see the person involved. That is also why I recalled the not too long ago incident, which is after seeing the individual. Then, I placed myself in the person's shoes. Hormones explained it. I of course know the ficklemindedness of humans. I do know attraction to new individuals is normal ("People forget, get bored, grow old, go away." -Jeanette Winterson.) indeed. I guess this is empathy. Besides, things happen because of God's will. And then I let go of the anger. And then I would recall, "what is the point?" I no longer feel any romantic feelings for the person involved. Besides, what is this romanticized notion of love meant for? I admit that pride caused me to be angry, but then I realized there was really no point. The anger was because of the pride. I would only be an angry person and be upset. Yes, and the anger was for the unexplained end to communication. This went through my mind today. Hence, forgive and let go. That is the best way. I hope you will be happy, and yes, please respect me as a friend. (:

You know something, I am only able to write this because this is one of those cases where I did give in much emotion but not too much. For those cases, I cannot write about it. Haha.

Then, through this, I saw the great instability of life. People have a change of heart so easily. It was literally gone the next day. This only backs my point of detachment, and sums up my argument of leading a life without marriage. I used to see the point of basing my happiness on another, but I realised that God's presence actually makes me happy enough. He gives me friends who do not add on to woes like young "love" (I think it is lust actually. Lol.) does, he carries me through all troubles. Thank you, Lord. I actually wish I did not have a cynical view about love though. I know that God created it for us, but not all of us are meant for it. I will see what he has in store for me. (:

I usually do not really blog about my day and feelings, but yes. School officially ends next week, and the Farewell Assembly will be held on Friday. Probably last week, I was contemplating about many issues. I was lying in bed in the living room (moving back to my room soon), where the setting is all emo-like and stuff, and thought of how everyone I know will just become a memory. I thought about the class-clowns and the funny stuff, how everyone cracks up jokes and laughs at everything. I truly will miss every single individual in 37/09. We had our quirks, and we grew from disliking everyone and being totally unsuited to the different types of people to embracing their qualities as endearing. I was just talking to Rachel (Hello Chestnut! :D)about it just now and I really will miss them the most. I have never liked a class this much. When CCA ended, I felt as though a part of me were missing but right now, the depth of liking I have for the class is far more and perhaps incomparable. I was always about being indifferent and all in my former schools. Truly loved perhaps the last or second last Captain's Ball game we had just now! It was aggressive and fun and simply amazing. (: I guess it always happens, and it is only with departure that people start to treasure the ones around them more.

5 weeks! Remain focused! I miss school. I wanna go back to school now and it's a Saturday. I just like the ambience there.

My phone got stolen at the National Library yesterday. Do email me or call my house phone if there is anything important.

I have been feeling this urge to blog for a while, but there was lack of sufficient time, and the desire for composing sentences just died down. Hmm, I was contemplating this issue in my mind yesterday. It is so odd how one can not feel anything at all when you commit certain things that are meant to evoke a response. I am talking about general themes in life. How can one feel so cold? Imagine a murderer, killing his victim. He must have successfully mastered the skill of detachment.

Perhaps, humans may have developed that from past experiences. I found it odd. I questioned myself, and yes, of course, overanalysing and attempting to "understand" yourself only results in greater lack of comprehension. Lol.
Hence, we should just let things be. Let it be, let it be. (: That song comes to mind. Haha.

I need breakfast now, I am hungry.

GOOD MORNING! :D Haha I am glad. IT IS A BRAND NEW DAY! Cousin asked me to run with him later. :D Yes we spoke about it this week. Can't wait to run new routes! Okay I need to touch math. Haha I keep thinking about my H1 Math papers when I do my other subjects. I just feel like touching them everyday. I am sorry my little babies. It misses me. I miss you too my sweet little papers.

(Edited at 21:55- Haha, okay. It was really exciting! Hahaha I sound like some little boy. Went to the same place and went to climb onto some hill! Lol I stepped into this pit and it brushed against my leg. I ran long distance 5 nights in a row! Lol sorry I like to talk about it as usual but it seriously requires great mental strength and it trains you psychologically. ANYWAY, the lesson I wish to tell you is that if you set a goal, you can achieve it! I told myself on Monday that I was going to run Long D all 5 days instead of alternating between sprints and Long D and I DID IT. You can do it too! Hahaha. Be positive! Start caring for your body today! Anyway, I think that may be slightly too much. Perhaps I need to have breaks in between next week! :D

Yeah, the thing is, Long D without running at a fast pace is alright if you do it every night. However, if you run at a rather quick pace daily, it is not exactly great for your body. I have learnt that.

I FEEL HAPPY NOW! THE ENDORPHINES ARE BEING RELEASED LIKE THE RIVER! HAHAHHAHA LOL Okay good night!)

Went to explore the depths of IMH again last night. I wanted to run back to SK but decided against it. Haha, it is not as far as I thought it was actually! It is pretty safe at the instituition. Not many humans there at night, that is why. It is only unsafe when there are strange humans lurking around. Darkness is indeed a solvent of animosity. I said "Hello" to random strangers when I neared the entrance and was greeted with response. Haha. Running at night does indeed generate this sort of loneliness, and yet that sort of isolation is pleasing. Hmm. Hills are also an interesting challenge. As you probably have noticed, I am indeed psychoing you to start exercising today. Haha!

Yeah, I have learnt to forgive. And stay away from non-positive humans. :D Surround yourself with positive people!

Oh yes, I wish to to clarify some misconceptions! (:
RUNNING DOES MAKE YOU BURN FAT TISSUES!
Running at high speeds burn the fat tissues as it is indeed a cardio activity (one that keeps your heart rate at an elevated level), and it also loses water weight. Excessive weight loss however does result in loss of muscle as well.

Oh yes,I prefer my comfort circle untouched and uninvaded by people I have no feelings for, especially undertaken by individuals outside of school! Haha, anyway, generally, I do not like it when a person imposes his ideas on me and carries out certain actions, and this is clearly for the case where I have absolutely no romantic feelings for that individual. (: However, noting that, I have set it in words and hence it is no longer part of me. Forgive, and be happy! I am positive and truthful! Hahaha. I do admit that I was not joyful about it but I have great cousins. Haha.

Yeah, Humans do understand that physical distance is vital when a predator is lurking around, and I will ensure my security especially when I am repelled by the attempts at close distance! hahaha very humorous imagery! LOL. I LIKE HOW FUNNY IT SOUNDS. Hahaha. Language is so cool. It is 8.30 p.m.! Should be leaving the house soon.

Moreover, there are great advantages such as pleasant complexion and weight loss, apart from the ASTONISHING PYSCHOLOGICAL BENEFITS! I went to do some research, and found out that it is indeed alright to run when one has a cold! Haha, do not run if you have a flu though. Yeah, the research was only done because I have a cold now, which came as a result of the lack of available healthy food for the past week!
Evacuated from my room today for the tenant! Prelims on Mon.

Oh yes. You should have one "rest day" a week where you do not run, to allow yourself to recover. Perhaps I shall make mine Saturday, where I hardly use my legs when swimming casually with my extended family. Really look forward to those evening outings at the chalet near the beach. (: I really love swimming.

I copied and pasted this. Type "Benefits of Running" and this is top of the Google list.

"Running can also have many psychological benefits. Most significantly runners typically report being happier and feeling less stressed than their counterparts who do not run or exercise regularly. Running actually has the ability to alter an individuals moods because hormones called endorphins are released while running. These hormones create a sense of euphoria often referred to as a runner’s high and can result in an improvement in the runner’s mood. Running has also been reported to alleviate stress in most runners. There are a number of factors which may contribute to running lowering stress levels. One of the most obvious reasons is the act of running allows the individual to focus on the task at hand instead of being worried or stressed about work, family or other stressors in his daily life. Additionally, running can be very challenging on the body which can result in the individual feeling a sense of accomplishment by completing the run which shifts the focus of his attention from negative stressors to a sense of pride and accomplishment."