English mid-year examination was today, it's over. isn't that awesome. Right now, i've got to study for my other subjects but I'm currently updating instead.

i was on my way home early today to study when i saw this blind man getting off at the same stop as i was. i didn't notice that he was visually impaired at first, but later it occurred to me that he was when i saw his stick-aid, so i approached him and asked if he needed help. turns out he actually did, and if i had not asked, no one would have given a second thought. he was visiting his son and he had just gone to a supermarket to purchase some groceries for his beloved child.
i followed him all the way to the bus stop outside the mall and i began a random conversation, and i found out he attended church a few times. he didn't understand my directions many times when i told him to move left and right and he would falter and he seemed really unsure, and i suddenly empathized with his predicament. many of us do not actually treasure what God has given us. we sin, over and over again. we pray that God would forgive our sins, but we continue to dwell in iniquity, depicting our actual nature- the ugly side of mankind. I've got to be frank, and I'm an epitome of that. when he finally almost reached the bus stop, he did not really know where exactly it was, so i held his arm and guided him and there was this couple who started laughing. i do not know if they were laughing at him but i felt they were and i was really upset but i ignored them. following, i do not know why but i felt my eyes watering and i did my job and left. he told me to have a good day.

as i hurried home, i thought to myself. ' does anyone actually care about the people around you, strangers or not? here, a passing stranger has just helped you to get to a place you're going. it may not look like much, but imagine if someone actually does this for you, how touched would you be? '

many times, we neglect the people around us, we forget how much they care for us, or how much we should actually care. how about our family? your mother, has been your carrier for nine freaking months and the years thereafter? imagine carrying a 3kg sack on your body for 9 months and losing your voluptuous or stick-thin ruler figure. :/ how about your father and your grandparents? everyone around you. siblings? friends will NOT last forever but the blood ties between you and your family will always be there. why not do it now, tell your parents and grandparents you love them or just write a sweet note and paste it on the refrigerator. don't say" I regret it, i wish i had, but now they're dead, and i mourn, i cry and i wish they hadn't died so soon." you think that's the time to say it? no, it's over, really.

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I hope there are readers, or I'll be blogging for nothing. i shall add a tagboard when i bother to, or else it shall just remain the analogous way. you can add a sweet comment if you wish to reveal your identity. :D I swear, I'm a really nice girl.

Can't wait to start my modeling career in just days in the midst of my exams. I know it sounds crazy to do this now but I shall cope. I'm sorry my job is a superficial one, the money is good, and the exposure is fantastic. (: head start! i shall upload the pictures soon.

teardrops

countless drops of water fall from the sky up above,
undaunted by the secular world,
its sufferings, pains.
heartbreaking tears, they are pouring out their woes,
crying out to the world
where is the joy? there, little children starve and wither away,
innocent lives taken
by cruel, heartless creatures.
where is the love?
the innocence is tainted, with cold, lifeless.
where is the light?
countless drops of water fall from the sky up above.

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who reads my blog nowadays? i've been an inactive blogger since a long time back.

i was in a poemy mood. i recall i used to write random poems about no particular object or incident and post it on my ex-blog. i've got to admit, i've really become a good girl this year.
away with the late days out, in with the studying and more.
english mid year examination is tomorrow, and i studied. don't ask me how i did it, i just did it.
i'm sure my daddy and mummy love me way much! studying is coolx.

time really flies, and i'm already sixteen. thought young it may be, but it still seems pretty quick.
i shall upload pictures from my portfolio soon, if i actually have the time. yay! :D
jessica stam and sasha pivovarova are like my role models. they're hot stuff. way cool.

http://www.jessicastam.com/home.html
http://www.sashapivovarova.com/home.html

nothing exists, everything is purely a figment of your imagination.
tell me this world is real, show it to me.

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