Living for Christ Jesus is the most important thing.
I have done so many wrong
Things many times, that When I stood up for Him when people
Used His name in vain, I was ridiculed. Living really does matter.
Proper living. Upholding your beliefs.
I am not perfect but I have to live better.
It is hard sometimes, when one's interests and conflicts arise and battle against each other.

At times, I think I am too calm. But that is the most important thing. Happiness is
Of vital importance to me. Many things in life might affect the majority but at times
I am not afflicted. Be happy. (: happiness is like a gust of sweeping wind. It leaves you like a Chilling Gust of Wind and, and it leaves.
But that doesn't matter. (: I just need to be happy once. Once is all I need.
I like to look at happy things and laugh and glided butterflies. Butterflies die young, in comparison to human beings,
But their short-lived beauty does bring about much happiness. That phrase has taught me to appreciate little things in life.
Sometimes, people think I am much older and much younger than I am, because of the ways I adopt. We all need adaptability and happiness, for that is important.

Run, and be free. You are a free creature of spirit and warmth. :D The wind embraces you and caresses you softly as
You FLY through the cold, warm night air. (: I love running so much. My late night runs, my constant, my happiness. (:

I love my arts-y world and my colours and my pictures of art, frozen, still, captured, ta-da!!! :D Artwork. More artwork
Coming. It's a secret. ;) You won't know my life nor understand but if you may, you might marvel at it.
Only if you wish. People can be strange and not happy. (:

Get up and live. Move, move on and look forward. This was your choice and decisions in life can be simple or difficult, but it is just a matter of your own choice. Be happy, and be confident of what you do. Anything. Give your all. Be in THE PRESENT, and embrace it. Do your best, and you must measure the best. Take it easy and take it hard. Know to be self reliant. Be strong and
Be of a good courage. Stick up to it, and remain determined in your course of action. Let go of pride, fill yourself with goodness and openness. Feelings of purity. Be happy, and enjoy. Chill, and be glad! be glad in every course of action! Gahhhh! Human interaction! Too much and too little. Scary. Extremes. Madness. Sanity. Hmmmmm grass. Green? Not. Perspective! Woohoo.

It is about giving yourself chances,
and letting the flow of life go smoothly, unadulterated as
the sand white granular pebbles.
It is about finding yourself
in the creases of white cloth of perfect judgement,
where no judgement can make you fall.
Creases VANISH,
judgement can cease.

There is nothing as simple as blowing trees caressing
pure oxygenated air in the summer breeze.
Is it the other way round?
The summer breeze often warms me when I prance down
those teeny steps, oops, I fell
as lightly as flour into the crisp air.
Flour can evaporate like winter drops of honey-like dew in the
brand new morning.
Hold my five fingered structure and clasp it with yours,
a sense of unity and light-weighted joy.
Sprint into the open emerald field where
we will immerse in shades of green and beauty.
Beauty is yours.
Beauty is yours, to keep.

It's about giving yourself chances in life, I am glad. (:

My dear, what lies beneath your painful gaze?
That thought of mournful loneliness.
Cold touches of warm lust,
And painless shrieks of happiness
Coated with fine, white sugar crystals and
Insanely lighted candle wax dripping,
Dripping, dripping down my head.
No touch can consume that fixated gaze that made me
Freeze in that warm, summer night.
It was like a dream, a winter dream of warmth and
Of hope, but how can there be hope in winter?
There is only hopeful coldness.

Let go of your joy, my friend, and let go, only to replace
Your joy with ecstasy.
With merriment.
With wedding bells.

Isn't it the same thing?

My friend, you have gone insane.
You are not stable, my fair lady, my fair man,
My fair judge, my fair role model.

(:

I love insane ramblings of disheartened poetry and prose. Amusement and
Letting loose. My first love- the love of language and my second love- the love of picture art and creation,
Which was why I put so much into modeling previously. Sing, my friend, sing the long song, your year late song and your year late dream.

I have always been careful to expose particles of myself in life, for I have acquired the knowledge that exposure led to vulnerability. Of course, it is perfectly fine if you don't mind getting hurt, but that is a choice. What is the reward and what is the punishment?

Raw fish can have a good taste for some people because rawness is tenderness, and tenderness has the same meaning as love. Tender as twines and fir cones and tendrils and another note, lustful young leaders. Raw and your meaningless artworks of merriment and sore affection. Dry up like wet tissues turned cold and mouldy, and wither like raw flowers of chrysanthemum. There is still hope. Sometimes I fall into your trap as well, and I have only myself to blame. Get out, be untangled, it is only by choice.

But these are other people. I can choose my own exposure. (: we can be strong.

I want my story. I wanna throw all the paint I can. I wanna have the most colorful experience. For me.

I love the feeling I get after running! I FEEL EXTREMELY RECHARGED AND SO EXCITED! Honestly, the reason why I participate in this activity is because of the mental and physical benefits I would receive as a reward. Oh my goodness, I LOVE RUNNING! IT IS AMAZING. I feel extremely in control of myself, especially mentally. I especially love how I overtook another just now, as this sport definitely trains you mentally. Honestly, in the past, when I used to run so much, I did feel tired sometimes but my mental strength was so strong. However, after being in my current industry and also drinking the water, honestly, it really helps so much. Truthfully, I really do not believe it is psychological, but instead, physical as well! I CAN DO IT!!! GONNA SLEEP!

Contemplation is required to be an ongoing process in life. We need to contemplate about consequences before partaking in particular actions. Being on an auto pilot mode is strictly a no-go, as this has the tendency to destroy many human beings. The scary thing is that this is a gradual process, not an immediate one. In other words, it will be a slow death. I am sure one wouldn't wish to lose their humanity and sanity in most cases yeah. Contemplate and process before you post ridiculous things on Facebook. I have little tolerance for people who do that in reality as it reflects a lot about their flawed generic makeup. It's not nice!

Anyway, opportunity cost is the cost of the next best alternative good forgone. When your opportunity cost is high, please make the best of it! Come on girl! (: I always loved this theory, I need to apply it fully!

There's a reason why I gave up my Uni slots in SMU and NUS. I never posted this online before in detail, especially in August, where it was difficult. why I did this was because I saw an opportunity in my job. Times may be slow sometimes and high at times, and sometimes actions do not mirror intentions and we end up drooping, but there's this goal. There is this desire to never cave in to leave incompleted in the task that I wanna do. There is this need I have in me that makes me wanna persevere despite facing difficulties, and sometimes my actions don't tally and results don't. We all will find ourselves. Correct actions. there is a dream, and dreams are things that keep us going. Monotony is a trap. It is like quicksand. I wanna succeed. I need to go running for that drive! (:

Theme: Juxtaposition (notice the transition from less than positive to positive!)

I can be anything you want me to be.

 I am a bat of many colours, even though bats are typically black unless in fake worlds, but I can sing songs of loneliness that will squeeze the creepiest juice out of the most shriveled up human being without love. 

I am Cynicism, and I see nothing but pain and I pick dust out of clean cloth. I can see grey in an immaculate set of sparkling bright dishes, scrubbed once by Mommy and once by the dishwasher. 

I am a song. I am a string of perfectly correlated notes that are bound up in a necklace of melody. My tune goes for ages and is often repeated by sane mankind, who often ironically become submerged in my words and drown in sorrow. 

BUT, What is I am a dove? I am pure and my impeccable coat of white shines even in the gloomiest of nights. In daylight, my enchanting songs will echo throughout the cheery cities and envelop in radiant bliss. My bliss will multiply tenfold, and I will send you praise. 

I am Acceptance. I receive, and I respond with loving kindness and graceful speeches, for according to the laws of wordings, there needs to be peace. Calmness is the centrality of my life, and I greet every 'misfortune', commonly misregarded by the world as castrophic, as a lesson learnt. Why is that so? Honestly, everything happens for a reason. I have understood why from what I have gone though. 

I am a song. I am a string of perfectly correlated notes that are bound up in a necklace of melody. My tune goes for ages and is often repeated by sane mankind, who relish and revel in the great joy we bring. When song fills the soul, the soul is uplift.


We can see Anything the way we wish to perceive it with. Why not, choose the right glasses? 

We all each have a thousand stories and a million tales to tell about our individual boxed up lives, otherwise about the open entity we each possess. The importance of each story lies in the reader's hands. It can be mildly important or even extremely striking in nature. Each page can be read and interpreted in so Many ways! There are countless settings you can
Place these self-written storybooks in, and each way is so
Unique to the respective reader who consumes the book either in part or in whole. This is meant to confuse, not
To be understood. Interesting is the thought of man, for man have many thoughts. These innumberable thoughts often scare me.
Your intentions can scare me but yet can mean nothing to others. Hmm, let it be glad though! However, the intentions of these thoughts can be sadly ignored too. Human interaction is confusing sometimes and often leads to an unnecessary depth of misery. Yet, it is the existence of this misery that pleasurizes these living creatures. How interesting yet again. (: we are all single beings who attempt to glue fallen leaves together to create a green tree. How the vibrance of these dead leaves attract them. Dead leaves are meant to supply new life, and dead leaves have no duty in life. Let it be peaceful always, and happiness would reign above all things which are nothing. I wish everybody were happy and pure, but I know it Is best if we do our best and be real yeah. (:

Happiness is the best, and happiness is inside. (: it has always been, and will always be. Haha, love
These random rantings for they are so beautiful crafted. Stories.

You know, sometimes I want to know every story. Some people draw me to them
And I wanna read them. I tend to analyst a lot and then sometimes I don't for it is too bad. Analysis is meant for being sharp. A lot of times I choose not to do that, but it becomes a habit to not read things. Rmb to read at appropriate timings, and the most important thing is to be happy. Rmb to understand from different shoes. I have never worn yellow or maroon shoes in my life so I will never understand, but I can emphasize. I miss literature! yet I hate it for it makes me analyze too much! Double edged swords huh. Haha, okay I just wanna be normal and sleep, good night!

Dad Spending his birthday and anniversary with me at hospitals. Thanks dad!
I don't feel as well but I will be fine. We can do this! Haha looking forward to dinner. I am so awfully hungry.