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MISS SINGAPORE WORLD 2009!

(This post is so gonna be like devoid of flowery language that I adopt for my usual posts.)

Hahahahaha. For humans uninterested in my mundane life that is more interesting than a nerd's life of books (hahahahahah. :D), you shall be invited to skip the pictures and read my wordy blog to expand your general knowledge. (LOL) Sorry, I am like, high on the lack of sleep.

I shall mention the details.
There will be six of us for this hairshow.
There will be three main models that will strut(Haha cuz we are dressed like pretty peacocks in our mask makeup) the runway twice and the three others once.
AND GUESS WHAT? Kim Meagan, Karen and I will be THE main ones! :D

In case you mistakenly thought that I was insane to have messed with my hair cuz I was young and ignorant and I like to go to school looking like a delinquent, my hair is dyed and curled for the hairshow, not because I am attention seeking kz. Hahaha, don't misinterpret me! The curls are uncurling by themselves because my hair is too thick to remain tamed. Lol.

Hahahah. :D Now for your visual entertainment.

I do not enjoy taking pictures of myself but this is this only option to remember the hair I had once. :D You know, when I like looked into the mirror with my limitless megapixel eyes, I looked like some doll. Hahahaha that's kinda the theme they wanted to achieve, so yeah.


Kim Meagan and I! :D


Hahahaha, Look at the falsies. They were like extremely huge and I could hardly see cuz my eyes are like pretty small. Yeah, the barbie doll hair.


Fancy those rollers! :D Look at Kim's ravishing mask eye makeup! Her hair is soooo cute!


My 2MP cam does no justice to the makeup artist's work!


Anyway, thanks to Alfie for this excellent opportunity! :D

I am uncertain if they are going to change the outfits but this will most definitely be an awesome and unforgettable experience. Do make your weekends on the 11th, 12th, 18th and 19th free for the upcoming shows! :D Come for the show. You can like, google it online or ask around to find out more.

I will disclose the details if you ask. :D Hahahahaha. Okay, I need to like totally ameliorate my memory. I shall consume the model answers!

Yes, I do bear the knowledge and have it etched on my mind that superfluous superficiality is merely temporal, strictly of this world.
Perhaps my presence will influence the stereotype and possibly evoke a better change. Haha, I'll pray. It does not mean that all models are bad, evil people.

You look at them and you roll your eyes, thinking that they're stuck up aliens just because they're objectified.

There are good ones. Most are merely misused like mishandled funds, sadly. It is true.

And I am like, totally in the midst of my mid year examinations.
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And yes, I gave up on her already. I do not know her motive but maybe I will attempt to treat her normally again. After all I cared a lot once.

And no, I do not know really have a clear idea of what is going on. I do not dare to assume that something is meant for my knowledge because the countless happenings are taking its toll on me. Like, you hopelessly wonder if you're supposed to have knowledge of it cuz you accidentally found out. And then, you are uncertain if you are the concerned individual.

I really risked too much.
Sighhhhhhhhhhh.
I can write a lot of romance novels cuz my imagination is notably futile.

12.30.p.m,12 hours later. edited- Maybe It is about another matter. Off to study! :D Focus galz

Whenever I am in school, I sigh a lot.
During the holidays, this annoyance never bothered me.
I started again today.

Sigh.

Oh, and my analogy. It's like, the goldfish finding out that it really isn't made of gold, it's just a fish named a goldfish. HAHAHAHAA. INCOHERENT.

Like I said, do not read too much into whatever I type here for you can see that it is for the general public like the stranger I saw at the skygarden today.

I stare at something repeatedly like a zombie and attempt to dissect every snippet of information. This is what GYL does.

You should really help her. It's 12.36a.m. now.

Goldfish anyone?
I miss my cuteystar gold coloured fish.
I was at its deathbed. I stared at it until it totally stopped moving.
Oh how I loved my fish. I was p5 then.
I feel like crying now. I am so weird.

I named the other lookalike cuteystar too and forgot about the fish's previous name to remember my poor fish that passed on.
It was so loyal and devoted and it shook vigorously whenever I shook its food container in front of the tank. It would open and close its mouth rapidly to accentuate its desire for food. It was always hungry. I think I overfed my cute star. It survived until I was in sec 2 or sec 3 and it passed on.

I was devastated for weeks.

I miss my fish.
I still have the pictures somewhere.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

12.41a.m.

Why do memories of things like my cute fishes remain after years of innumerable encounters?
Cuz those moments were simply extraordinary.
Simple and memorable.
Sigh, My fish.
I shall never raise a fish again.
I cry when they die.

My hair is done for the events.
You can view my pictures on facebook.

I watched transformers with my Dad and my sister yesterday.
Hot girls in the show.
Cool robots. Like, really.

Hahahaha.

At the very least, I have dreams that I am on the road of fulfilling.
I notably dislike people who constantly chant the memoir of failures. (If there is such a thing)

As long as you believe in yourself and put your trust in God, he will path the way for you.

If you know me and I do not know you, who is the unintelligent one doing common things like gossiping?

Haha, I am not talking about myself. It is about others commenting about my friends to me. It is not really nice.

That is right. Stand out from the crowd and stop being a commoner.
No, I am not speaking commoner as in like, lower beings but people who do common things that are wrong.

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Hmm, Is this worth being happy about?

I am going to be very corny and give you some age-old analogy.

Only familiar people(just meaning friends and all) and I can call myself GYL, strangers cannot like the way I saw it on some comment. I appreciate it. haha. :D thanks. heh.

And yes, I am know I have made mistakes, but people who laugh about 'ego' are actually just gossips.
You guys just can't see it.
Maybe one day you guys will.
Till then, maybe I will just pray for you.
Perhaps I have given up but I will pray that I do not.
I wish to extend my apology if I have lost hope on you.
It is not that I have not made attempts, but I have forgiven too many times.

Okay, storytime! :D Heh sorry if it offends you.

Like GYL is lost in the forest and she sees a helicopter above!
She's gonna be saved, like totally! Wowz. Ohmygosh oh my GOSH!
And GYL sprints towards that teeny weeny polkadotty-NOT-really thing that looks like a helicopter in the hole of a sky.

And Poof! It's a bird.
The real helicopter proceeds to save some other stranger.

'Okay, I am lost. I am doomed to die. I shall beg the bird brain to bury me in the tiny little hole some caveman dug to relieve himself a century ago.' hahahahahhaa.

(hahahaa sorry I was just so tempted to inject some sarcasm and humour, I can't help it.)

And the poor lost human was stuck in the expectantly humid and dense rainforest, and all she sees are just trees and more darn trees and she does not know the one she should settle for to reside in (How ironic. Yay lit.) only for the night. Okay fine sojourn in the tree. She is now homeless. She is perpetually attempting to find the sturdiest tree(personification?) available but she keeps altering her midset. ):

She finally concludes that a cave is the best. Hahahaha.
Unalive and awesome.

Anyway, GYL has been lost in the forest for like since time was when she got abandoned in the forest a century ago.

She suddenly hears the buzzing (haha, I think.) helicopter from afar. She beholds the glorious and magnificent machine with a little relief.

And now, she is like kinda annoyed cuz life in the cave was really awesome.
Not really.

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Hahahaha I should be a artist for conjuring up such a wonderful image.

Sigh, but that's okay anyway.
I am not a petty person. :D

This is general, and I tend to get upset if people do not apologise but I forgive easily when they do. I suppose that is my flaw and my good point.

HAHAHHAA okay so like Colin C Jack Brown the guy told me this and it is damn funny.
It is about believing in yourself. Seriously, watch it for a good laugh.
It takes up an entire minute of your hectic life. :D
Oh, it is highly recommended to potential emo-dumbz.



I shall be boring and update you on my personal life!
The hair stuff will be done this Thursday for the upcoming event I have mentioned previously. (:
YAY!

A measure of time

It's 2 a.m. and you're staring through the screen
Your eyes are bloodshot and the worms are out to play
Prolonged deceit will cause the house to decay
And it is nothing like what you've seen

You lie in your bed and you gaze at the unadulterated clouds
A thunderstorm of thoughts overwhelm you

And soon- it is just a measure of time

And soon you fall asleep.

A Cliff of Roses

My cliff of roses were never mine
I sneaked there twice, and I absorbed the glorious sight
To never be there again would be such a fright
As I would never be able to once more feel this fine

The ravishing roses were stunning to behold
but when I was inattentive the thorns struck me unaware
Life grips you at times to remind how you should fare
and I reached out to touch the petals, crimson and bold

The thorns pricked me constantly but I remained calm
A lesson learnt is new knowledge found
If you actually close in you would hear a distant sound
The comforting songs of the consecrated psalm

My cliff of roses were never mine
They are just a memory, a memory I'll keep in mind
And once in a while I will still allow myself to look behind
As I would never be able to once more feel this fine

My Shepherd

Countless times your poor sheep has strayed away
Departing with indifference and a proud look
Returning weary with a frail frame that shook
But the Shepherd still welcomed me on this blessed day

Jesus, please help me to resist
The temptations and never to use my fist

When you embark on long trips away from home, you tend to think too much.

You tend to accidentally touch on still, unwavering waters of yesterday that will always be etched on you, branded and unchangeable.

You will think about how you were like then- when you were seven and lovable, free from revolting favours.

You will unintentionally recall how you had your first crush when you were eleven on that bad 'older' troublemaker, laugh about how frivolous you guys were.

You will remember the first lie you told when you were out somewhere else doing stupid things.

You will see how you were when you were thirteen and ignorantly stupid, mimicking the crowd
to attain recognition and how you still carry the disgust for those people.

You will now know, due to the benefit of hindsight, how timid and dumb you were when you were fourteen, swayed by pernicious rumours about others and forgoing all hope about a matter.

You now realise that you should have been wise enough at fifteen to have not done many things out of spite and out of a moment of indifference.

You would have started studying in January when you were sixteen instead of procrastinating.

However, it is alright as it is all past. (:

Oh, I shall stop now. Hahahaha. Too recent.
I did not actually think of all these during the trip.
It just came up.

During the extremely long journey around Malaysia, there were countless occasions that prompted my brain to make me wanna blog about it.
However, when I actually get down in front of the screen, I do not feel the need to anymore.

Hahaha wow I write about a lot of things on my blog.

I visited Sunway, Cameron Highlands, Ipoh and Melacca respectively.
I loved the strawberries.
They are simply wonderful.

I am extremely tired. I got back at almost eleven p.m.
Why am I still awake?
I will get off soon.

I shall post my random thoughts now.

I walked up three flights of dark stairs alone at night and wandered off in Cameron Highlands.
I got lost in the mega mall in Sunway at least three times because I wandered off again.
I picked strawberries and ate them without first washing them.
I ventured into places I should not have been to and randomly opened closed doors even though it is not right.
I wandered off to the rose 'garden' situated at the cliff by myself and almost fell off parts of it a few times.
I am a rose thief.
I took pictures with roses.

Hahahaha.

My brother got harassed by a pedophile in the male toilet.

My family and I went on this trip with my father's friend and his family and his daughter is in my school and we share a common teacher. Guess who! hahaha I don't like naming people, it is weird.

Yeah, What a coincidence. Hahaha.

Hahahaha. It is almost two a.m.

Did people actually read all the things I wrote?
I hope so. :D

Arghhhhhh why.
Everyone asks the same question.
WHY.
yeah, WHY.

Hahahhaa. whatevs.

OH MY GOSH GO AND SLEEP NOW.
You just came back from a six-day trip. What is right with you!

I love yuki hanna goh. hahhaahha.
She was my permanent bolster during the trip.

shibushaba yukihanna ngeh ngehzzx

She calls this baby language.
Hahaha, so weird!

LOL.

K nightz.

I just allow myself to reminisce about recent events too much.
You do?

Next.
I know that this is the price to pay for adopting this route of life. Superfluous superficiality. -.-
Gzzz.

All the small talk, all the unnecessary nonsense you would have to put up with.
We all have to get used to it and ignore external endeavors to penetrate your unyielding shield.
LOL.

I just saw another parody of my picture. LOL.
And I do know what is going on.
Haha, typi-calx guyz.
And people said I should be honoured. Hahaha.

Like I said, do you even know me?
Not 'I knew her' in that unspoken way but you know. Hahaha.

Countless people are bounded by the imperatives of submitting and contributing to every single gossip. Perhaps we could all attempt to be different. After all, what comes around goes around. Heh. :D Yeah manz.

I will be part of Miss Singapore World preview's runway hair show UNLESS there is parental objection. :DDDDD YAY. I will be leaving the country for four/five days beginning Sunday Morning. :DDDD

K I just copied this off facebook. Hahahahaa.
It'd be like so coolz. Haircut, perm, etc.
Hahahaha YAY!!!!!!!!!!
Man, I wish this could be my permanent life!
Apparently not, so I have to hit the books soon.
Geez, I wish I could literally hit my books till they turn into pulp.
After all, recycling is the utmost priority.

AFTER YOUR A LEVEL DUDEZ.

I can't wait for the trip to Cameron Highlands and Sunway Lagoon tomorrow! :D Awesomez.
YiLing will be blissfully chasing red butterflies and consuming gorgeous strawberries.

YiLing is starving.
Gbye.

I would constantly have this irrational and tantalising urge to commit insane activities at times= irrational decision making. Tsk.

This is by far the most important and relevant lesson I have acquired from studying econs.

I wish to do things that would expectantly make people scream "ohmygosh you're insane you !>#!?*)! " and they'll start uttering the words you never knew and they'll hate you cuz you're a really bad kid and. G!

Gosh. What a thought. I admit I have made countless irrational decisions. Haha.
Lessons have been drawn= PW and strategies have been conjured up to counter the problem.
However, think again. Is it my life, or yours?
Do you actually have the right to reprimand me?
You do have your freedom of speech and you do care in ways all because it affects you and your wavering position and your vulnerable self.

WHY.
Why do you want to talk about me?

Why do you wish to bother your honorable self about a matter that thoroughly does not concern your very soul? It must disturb you in some way. You should voice it out to the relevant people, not the multitude and the whole nation. (: Awz. Yes, like I mentioned a number of lightyears ago.

I adore sarcasm. Awesome Lit. :D

Contemplate before a final decision is made as it reflects a lot about yourself.

Yes, I should listen to what I preach and abide by my rules.

I should be a good girl.

I realise that I do not take pleasure in the friends I used to attempt pretty hard to please.
The frivolous ways and the insignificant lies seems to have mounted up to bagfuls of past insecurities. They cease to exist from this moment and henceforth, I shall mostly adopt the apathetic approach. It already works. I heard that from my classmate. :D Heh.

Do not attempt to impinge on my privacy. :D
I shall tell you when I may.

I just allow myself to reminisce about recent events at times.
Sigh. Too bad.

Pictures I like

Bridal wear is pleasing to the eyes. :D

I love ravishing gowns.

I HAD OREO CHEESECAKE AND NEW YORK CHEESECAKE YESTERDAY with my failed one time study partner.

I LOVE CHEESECAKE HAHAH I THINK I AM ADDICTED. :DDDDDDDDD

And My daddy got pissed.

'WHY DO YOU keep going out with boys? WHY. must all your friends be guys.'

'but THEY ARE FRIENDS! I like totally, don't like them that way. and I told you! I have NOTHING TO HIDE!'

Sigh, I know my daddy cares. Sigh, sigh, and sigh.
My daddy loves us all.
I understand.
I will work hard and do my mummy and daddy proud. :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

HAHAHAHA, I am sorry for being very annoying and writing inane things about my life.

Okay, I shall be a good girl.

I shall please him and stay at home.

I will play badminton with my adorable sister who keeps shouting into my ears and I retaliate by screaming like a 5 year old.

Hahaha. She can be nice actually. I should attempt to comprehend the mind of a nine year old. sigh, ):








My current FAVOURITE! :DDD
The chinese words are extremely meaningful and touches me greatly although I do not believe in certain parts like reincarnation.



繁华如三千东流水

我只取一瓢爱了解

只恋你化身的蝶

By the way, my phone was spoilt two years ago during my birthday period. My friend just informed me and I am absolutely sure that I must have 'ignored' other people during that period of time. Now you know! Wow.

Time is like a butterfly.

I guess we have not all gone ahead in life.

We are like the butterfly whose leg, if the butterfly has a leg, gets stuck in its cocoon even though the stupendous creature is brilliant and stunning and is able to soar the vast heavens and unravel the brightest beliefs. All because it refuses to leave its rotting, filthy cocoon.

How I adore imagery. Hahahahaha.

Anyway, concerning the sec three incident. I wish to reiterate and ITALICIZE the point that the thing happened in sec one to me okay! The entirety of the matter is NOT solely my fault. Please get your details and stop spreading it. Like, what is the great deal? It was a long while ago.

It serves no purpose. You should convey that energy to love your parents more and to study. Does it actually give you any sense of delight when you ramble about other people? Your efforts are clearly unappreciated and all you achieve is a bad name for being a gossip and you waste water and precious time.

See. Who gains the most? No one! Exactly! :D

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At times, I do wish that my feelings were taken into consideration before any decisions are made. After all, I am but human and I do have the occasional side effect of experiencing gloominess. Haha. :D

The crafting of words only proves to elaborate countless matters and its perplexity. I love camouflaging with jargon. I am actually exhausted both physically and mentally.

I must admit that it is rather challenging attempting to psycho yourself to feel and also, be in another state of emotion when you actually have the sole privilege to dwell in that comfort zone of yours.

Does it actually benefit you? Do you gain anything? You do not acquire anything but loss.

Loss. What is loss.

Hm. Loss.

Haha, losing something, i guess. Along the highways of life, different people, differing goals and remnants of your past misdeeds are left behind. Let's say, emotions are actual belongings in this scenario. Firstly, you misplace that anger you used to be proud of regarding a certain matter and you soon forgo that unhappiness.

You resign to reality and move on.

I guess the crucial factor is time.

AND, without clearing things up, bygones cannot be bygones. They will just morph into unfriendly abominable creatures that haunt you for years to come in work, school and play.

EEEEEEKS. awful imagery.

Yeah, if only I was not the sacrifice.
Then again, it is alright. I mean, I already have the ending in mind.
This path definitely won't do.

This is not what I had in mind. Better to forsake it.
Sooner than soon, misdeeds will be forgiven.
Actually, kind of already, except for the veritable fact that the belonging has injured my shoulder and injuries surface once in a while.

I should be a writer. Hahahahaa. My gosh so fun!

I'm still at Isabel's place. (: I shall leave soon. My dad wants me home.