I WANNA GO FOR CHURCH CAMP 2009.
I strongly uphold the notion that I will be presented with the opportunity to if I pray.
Pray for me. Thanks.

In case you have not chanced upon this.

Anyway, I am truly apologetic for my harsh comments.
There was this portion about the rumors thing and the labeling of this person.

I may have offended and hurt the people around me.
I still wish to remain friends.
I am authentically sorry!

SORRY SORRY SORRY. (:
I shall endeavor to ameliorate the situation.

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I dislike ignoring people's existence and it is an outright uncomfortable experience.

HELLO ZUHAILI! HAHAHAHA YOU SAID YOU READ MY BLOG and that I have hardly mentioned anyone from class. THERE YOU GO!

You are my favourite bus companion. HAHAHAHHAHAHA.

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Gosh, I am extremely hungry.
I need my dinner.
I have an urgent need to complete my overdue homework.

I am perpetually on the lookout for any glitches that may blemish your facade, the fraudulent schemes to overthrow any seeming threats. Tsk.

YAY!

Invent

Possibly enchanting smiles and the pathetically invented life
You sneer at their stupidity and giggle at their lies


The Lonesome Star

The lonesome star in the glaring mass
Peers at me, Looks its best
Who does it exist for? What does it see?
Its perpetual existence, does it really long for eternity?

Boo. I wanna go offline. BYE-ieS.

I should not be blogging. I was unable to resist the temptation.

OH YES. My PHONE is NOT WITH ME. Please ignore the possibility that I may be ignoring your existence or am simply stuck up. Thanks.

You may email me or call my house phone. (:

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I should be doing my PI, the second draft. I wasted an entirety of six hours with the resultant being almost completely useless.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I want to scream so badly.

I shall not. Cool down. You can do it.

I just quit cheerleading. ):

How disappointing. I was unable to cope and my dad was displeased, and obviously, when I am unable to attend any more practices, I just had to leave. Haha, It was a memorable experience though. I will miss them! :D

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I anticipate Wednesdays eagerly.
Assisting the folks in the home actually motivates me to be a better person and to ignore my selfishness. I realize that I do have a soft spot for the elderly and the less fortunate. I may be unfeeling and unkind to people whom I see no need to care about but I actually contribute more to neglected others.

A particular event made me terribly touched.
'Do you need help?'

These simple words, this thoughtless action.

'I'm okay, but sure.'

I went in, cleared the stuff and did the mundane chores.

The lady, during the course of the episode mentioned this.
'You know, it is really hard for me to get help. There are always too little people around. Every time I look at the mess on my table, I feel very upset. '

'It's okay. It's alright now.'

After an extended period of time.

'You know, very little people actually offer to help. Thank you.'

Her voice was shaky, she was on the verge of tears.

I am unable to evince the emotions that overwhelmed my very self at that moment.

The lesson that I wish to share is to please lend aid to the forgotten people.
Will you?

It does not take much, just an open heart and a genuine smile and a fraction of your time.
Kindly inform me if your Wednesdays are available for the ones that will veritably appreciate it.

Do you not wish to ameliorate your character and elevate your level of compassion? (:

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I felt faint during PE yesterday and threw up after I ate. Sigh.
I could not push myself any further and when I was recuperating by the side, I started weeping for my state. I totally abhor it.

I engaged in self pity and I told myself, 'this is what happens after you go for operations, you lose your stamina and feel weak and utterly useless.' Ahhhhhhhhhh. WHY?!

I have awoken but I detest it. Should I not be fine? It has already been about two and a half months. I am strong. I wanna run, I want my previous self back. This is so unfair.

Okay STOP IT. I will be fine. (: I will be fine. At the very least, I still possess the ability to do my countless situps. :DD Be glad, yiling!

Hahaha okay pray for me!

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It was Ahkong's birthday celebration at night.
It was a tear-jerking reunion for myself.

My cousin, Amanda, truly touched me.
She is a young and thoughtful girl, a little older than my youngest sister.
She told Mama to be strong and her words conveyed everything.

Although I initiated some of the conversation, the genuineness of her actions touched me to tears. I could see the reciprocation from Mama's eyes.

'Tell Mama you love her.'

'Mama, I love you.'

This is so touching.
Really. Visualize.

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Anyway, I am truly apologetic for my harsh comments.
There was this portion about the rumors thing and the labeling of this person.

I may have offended and hurt the people around me.
I still wish to remain friends.
I am authentically sorry!

SORRY SORRY SORRY. (:
I shall endeavor to ameliorate the situation.


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And, it would help if I had an answer. ):
It's like I'm good?

sighhhhh. D: The rush and the Hopeless crush.

YILING MADE AN IRRATIONAL DECISION TODAY!
SHE ATE TWO DARN BARS OF KIT KATS, THE HUGE ONES.

Yes, and she did not consume enough veggies. ):
Oh my goodness. Darn it. Shoots. next week. next week AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. ):

1)Lose weight at the appropriate areas of concern.
2)RUN, and once more acquire that undying passion to run at night like some health fanatic.
3)Crunches.
4)More crunches to get your washboard abs back.
5)Stop eating like a pig. Darn it.
6)You must start studying, you lazy pigZ. 8D
7)Stop being such a proud meaniex and smile at evil-looking peers.
8)Cease from displaying the smug smile in front of less fortunate souls with less appealing lives and empathize with their detestable situation. ((:0
9)I am awesome. (: I can do it. I must study.

Hahahahaha I am morphing into a Bimx.
Tsk tsk. You horrid superficial girl.
I likey. Oh, Too much Hannah Montana.
YILING MUST STUDY!!!!!

Okay enough rambling.
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Currently I am fully able to assess the situation.
Yes, this is the dire consequence of eating too much chocolate.

That is the result of submitting to your pernicious innermost thoughts that tantalize you and causes you to be engulfed by that vicious trap when you finally are submissive.
No, this is not about chocolates if you think I am peculiarly unsound.

Interact was awesome. I veritably appreciate and truly enjoy the moments I am entitled to at Chesire Home, assisting the folks that I care about and to revel in their delightful and heartwarming smiles.

Yes, I may not appear serious during most occasions and glare at you like I have an attitude problem but I do possess emotions. (:
A little bit of spice and a tinge of nice. LOL.

I am like, totally an awesome actress. You are not endowed with the ability to have knowledge of my veritable thoughts and when you do behold my eyes, all you catch hold of is what I enable you too see and what you espy is merely a momentary state of bliss. (:

Yes, how true. How entertaining.

Ah, the chocolates are getting on my nerves. I actually can feel those torn asunder bits floating around aimlessly in my body. YUCK! hahahha, No, I am not bulimic. They will remain there. (:

The incipience of outright laziness apparently began during the Delectable December holidays, the season of joy and exhilaration, a time of get togethers and yes, I must abolish all thoughts of failure. Eradicate laziness.
Yes, success is mine! :D

Yiling is eternally better than you. (:

I desire for more curls in my hair. It is like kinda wavy and straight due to genes but I wish for it to be curlier. ): Ahhhhh. I want.

OH YES. I SUDDENLY RECALL.

RUMORS ARE LIKE TOTALLY NOT TRUE.

You think too highly of yourself.

Okay, so I do not apologize for my ginormous ego and I am this meanie bitchie): if you label me that but thanks, I likey. Get away if you cannot tolerate hideously egoistic meanies! :DDDDDDDD I am like completely blameless that you do not make rationale decisions and have queer preferences. Like, I am rather annoyed at rampant links to me and weird rumors. Darnx infuriating. Okay thankie you.

Okay, so I was mean. What gives.
Sorrie :D
I shall type with unneeded -ies and irritate people.

Oh yessie, I wanna do something like that.

Tsk. How could this happen to me?

I woke up after a tremendously extended period of sleep, horrifying nightmares which I actually do not recall, and there I was.

Packet lunch was served and after a few mouthfuls of the seemingly delectable meal, I felt like throwing up. This is the resultant of skipping meals for a day and consuming your belated lunch at night.

I ignored the overwhelming urges and forced myself to consume the otherwise appealing food. AHHHHH. Yuck. Currently I am in a horrid state. I have learnt my lesson. Do not endeavor to substitute dinner with arduous work in a bid to preserve your very self and Cranberry Pomegranate with Apple juice. LOL.

And I just devoured this delicious red apple and I feel like dispelling it. How tragic. I do not possess the ability to enjoy my food today. ): Aw.

The enchanting droplets are falling from heaven above.
Where is the rainbow that I seek most?
And furthermore the souls that are eternally lost.

Words cannot display my gratitude to my sovereign Father who has granted me the people around me, those that veritably care. (:

Your opportunity cost is the awesome one. ((:

The Winding Staircase

Trivial things that made her day
A winsome smile that took countless breaths away
Like the sun that perpetually sets in the west
The flirtatious ways that constantly kept her in unrest

She once cared though currently it is overwhelming to mention
The competition and how she abhorred the rising tension
Time was when she previously had her way
Conversely right now she will not have her say

The winsome smile she abominates the most
How it manages to entice the ones she loved and lost
Utterly useless, she feigns her euphoria
Till she cannot stand it any longer, she flees and tears

The loathsome pretense, how she lies to herself
The useless endeavors when there was everyone else
How those folks were repleted with the blissfulness that couple shared
She engaged in that detested false merriment, like she even Damned cared

Your pathetic smiles and your feigned concern
Utterly repulsive at each and every turn
Too much this time, She wholly breaks down
She sprints up the stairs and the piercing tears; the results of what she has sown

How those folks were repleted with the blissfulness that couple shared
Their enviable gladness, Like she even Damned cared
She was sobbing uncontrollably, this They will never know
The sympathetic wails, engulfing her very soul

The winding staircase, the splendid place to hide
Those blessed people below will never know her plight
She was done with self-pity, nothing will be alright
She wipes away the piercing tears and retreats to their side

Her imperishable smile she adopts once more
Not in any condition will they catch a glimpse of her heart, still sore
Like the sun that perpetually sets in the west
His repellent ways that constantly kept her at her best

Her knowledge surpasses yours, She knows better than you
What you have lost this time is more than just a glimpse of her view
Eradicate the hatred, perish the pernicious thought
And it was not too long before she forgot

She pens this down for you to visualize
The countless ways that you could actually compromise

WOW. It contains too much anger. Animosity is rampant in the darn poem.
HAHA. MAYBE my poems are non-fictional. It varies from time to time.
I detest pretense and I applaud you.
All the best man. :DDDDD

I swear I can be like, a poet if I lose my job.

OH YES. Poems eluding exuberance.
One fine day.
HAHAHA, GET IT?

One FINE day. LOL.

Okay not funny.

HAHAHHAHAHA. :DDDDDDD

What-evs. :DDDDDDD Smileys are free and lighten up dull posts. :DDDDDDDDDDDD YAY!

Songbirds

As the songbirds of the freshly bloomed spring
The capricious breeze of the vast grassland sings
Enticing, captivating, alluring the comely king
To explore the mystical caves of the intriguing jungle

The peculiarity of the soothing melody enchants the eventide air
Therein blossoms the lovely maiden, unripe and fair
Her provocative charm is exuded from her bewitching eyes
Innumerable men have fallen for her inimical lies

As the nightmares of the bleak, prolonged winter
Predestined as it was,
The comely king will never acquire her

OH. The tragicness of poems.
hahahahahaha.
I am extremely hungry at this current moment.

AHHHHHHHHHH. I NEED FREEDOM.
I HAVE NOT CONSUMED A PROPER MEAL FROM THE START OF THE DAY.

Dang!

And my eyes hurt so bad.
And why do i care.
AHHHHHHHHH.
Ouchies.

I'm bent on depriving myself of food.
LOL. :DDDDDDD
YILING MADE A RATIONALE DECISION TODAY!
She did not succumb to temptation and bought the healthier choice of Cranberry Pomegranate Juice (1l) rather than a tiny cup of Ben and Jerry's!

:DDDDDD YAY ME.
How do I survive on fruit juice.
HAHAHHA I JUST FINISHED THE ENTIRE PACKAGE.

I am experiencing nostalgia.

AND THANKS EVERYONE! :D I LOVE YOU GUYS.

Of all the insecurities of life.
Wahlao.

Yes, like I mentioned in the distant past, they do have the temerity to endeavor to take over my life.
However, I will overcome that.

I am strong.
I may not be infallible, but I will combat the obstacles that will greet me along the stretched pathway overflowing with formidable problems. The extensiveness of the challenge may be overwhelming but I still have to face it.

Welcome it with perky smile, ignore all faults, hide the despondency, make believe that everything is fine.

How I adore the occasional fruitful attempts to better myself and ameliorate the dire situation and the onerous task of feigning to be unaffected.


EH STOP IT MAN.
You must be positive. (:

THANKS QI. HAHAHAHA.

God has a purpose and plan for every demanding trial.

YILING IS POSITIVE. :DDDD
I must exhibit stupendous and great fortitude.
The countless challenges that greet me are merely passing phases.

The world will fade away along with time and we should await His great return in earnest expectation of the new life to come.

YILING IS POSITIVE. :DDDD
YILING IS POSITIVE. :DDDD
YILING MUST STUDY AND EXERCISE!

Okay I am like darn happy now.
I am thrilled.
I experience erratic moods. LOL.

Oh yes. I desperately need time for shoots. I need a life.
I shall upload some of my favorites here.
I do not have access to some though.










Okay I do not feel like publishing any more pictures.

As the songbirds of the freshly bloomed spring

I used to care too fervently about looking fabulous and absolutely stunning.
I would waste my precious time away by dolling myself up with my prized makeup,
ensure that my hair is prim and proper in tandem, dress to the nines and impress the world.

I do not bother anymore. Not as much as I used to.
Perhaps I should.
hahahaha, that is what pleases me anyway.

Is that all to my life?
How superficial, and that actually makes me cheerful.
LOL. Laugh, whatevs.

This is the desolate impact modeling has on impressionable little girls.

Gosh, I do miss those days.

Oh, I gained weight. I have a importunate need to run!
I am compelled to do so.
YILING, YOU CAN DO IT.
YOU ARE AWESOME.

I desperately yearn for the days when I was actually light.
I consume food like a bottomless pit.

I smile at random guys.

I get tickled by things that are remotely hilarious.
hahahahhahha.

Stupendous is now my favourite word.

I realise that my sentences are not related to each other. My train of thoughts is seemingly unusual and positively incoherent.
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Stop playing the part of a bimbo.
You should lengthen your skirt and let it sweep the dull grounds of the school campus.
How ideal.

Yiling is ecstatic.
Yiling is in a state of euphoria.

Now to halt the erratic mood swings!

Joyous days are over, back to reality! :D
Formulate an up-to-date method of prolonged elation and I will be pleased. (:

You are the apotheosis of the dream most girls can only have on the sly.
And You is no one.

As You does not exist. (:
Okay thanks bye.

Flaws are magnified and abhorrence is inevitable.
Vanity of vanities.

I am rather annoyed.
The computer shuts down on its own without notice.
There must be something wrong with it.

Thank goodness for my disturbing habit of saving posts after every sentence.

I am undergoing general malaise. How infuriating.
hahahaha, how typical of girls.
My capricious moods are channeled in an abominable manner.
I apologize if I have snapped at you for no rhyme or reason. (:
I do not mean any harm usually.

I am glad now.
PMS. hahahahah, oh my goodness.

I adore libraries. They are so cozy.
I selectively luxuriate in the comfort the four wall generates.
I savor the still, unmoving air and the delightful ambiance,
the indescribable feeling that is not replicable.
I spot a corner and seek refuge there when I am feeling down.

It is mine, find another place.

Maybe I merely yearn for something dissimilar.
I do relish for easily attainable contentment at times.

Yet there are rare moments where I get to undertake the role as an errant wanderer,
exploring the grounds of nothing and at the analogous moment get to experience the much overlooked joys of life.

What gives.

Interact interview was awesome.
I sincerely hope that I attain the role as President. (:
Do pray for me! :DDDDD

I am extremely hungry.


Psalm 37:8- 10

"Cease from anger, and forsake wrath:
fret not thyself in any wise to do evil.
For the evildoers shall be cut off:
but those that wait upon the LORD,
they shall inherit the earth.
For yet a little while, and the wicked shall not be:
yea, thou shalt diligently consider his place,
and it shall not be."

Hatred results in harm and the consequences are undesirable and not beneficial.
Bear that in mind.

Your opportunity cost is the possibility of indefinite blissfulness that could have been derived from mindless activities! :D
I immediately feel glad reading this. (:

John 3:16-17
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved."

It is that simple.
You can acquire that gift today.
Just pray.