I hope you'll Make up your mind.

Lessons from each trial solely serve this purpose- to educate.
I hope I'll learn.

Promos in 2 weeks.
Heavenly Father, please guide me.

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"Surprise me"

Like the capricious eventide breeze in the season of doom
Characterized by such impulse as it dug its own tomb
Mesmerize me further but withhold the last breadth
Of pure merriment without an inch of suspense

Do not do this.

Started studying for econs today.
I crafted a timetable and I followed it for the first hour.
The breaks were longer than intended!
It's a good start though.

Haha, do it girl!

I did something not really good again, second time this month.
Not literally though. Haha.
Lol. It's okay. Sorry people.

I am glad for real friends and family.
I must be nicer to my family.
Cooking dinner now. :D
Creamy mushroom spag! :D

The only thing I care about now is acing my promos.

Why won't they get away.

I am in a queer state now. I stayed up till two plus for no apparent reason and I am really tired at the moment.

I commit bad acts some times, just like her.
And I feel bad, unlike her.

And I am dreadfully tired from it.
As events are past and memories are forgone, days drift on without a momentary pause.

I am extremely tired already.

I hate it- how I give up and then things take a complete turn.
I detest it- how I falter and alter my mindset every time.
I abhor how they like engaging in manipulation, and I am disappointed at how they revert to their old selves time and again.
I dislike how I give in and commit those baneful actions.

And most of all, I like it how we're happy at those temporal moments.
But when I let my guard down you're back to your old self.
But it's okay, you have an impervious shield. :D

People who perpetually have a cynical view about everything put me off in a sad way.
Will my friends be glad one day?

I left and returned, but now,
It's time to leave.

Okay, I have gone. :D Hehe.

I am in control.
I am not gonna participate in mind races.

((:

I'm glad it's a week's break! :D

Now for my gay side,
I love Chuanie, Vaish and Melmel :D :D
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I think "The Winding Staircase" is damn sad.
Haha. Attempt to put yourself in the person's shoes, engaging in "false merriment".
Well, I did once. Hahaha, sorry I just love my poems. They are my babies. :D

"The loathsome pretense, how she fabricates it herself
The useless endeavors when there was everyone else
How those folks were replete with the blissfulness that couple shared
She engaged in that detested false merriment, like she even Damned cared"

"How those folks were replete with the blissfulness that couple shared
Their enviable gladness, Like she even Damned cared
She was sobbing uncontrollably, this They will never know
The sympathetic wails, engulfing her very soul"

"The winding staircase, the splendid place to hide
Those blessed people below will never know her plight"

And
"Her imperishable smile she adopts once more"

Haha, those depressing moments I once went through!
Lol, but it's over.

How nice.
I love smiles.
They hide everything.
But they are genuine now. (:
I do not hide things anymore.
Haha! :D

Yay! I won something.
I am extremely happy.
I am a budding poet! YAYYYYYY. Hahahaha.
Gotta go up and collect something tomorrow.
Read my poem! :DD

"The Winding Staircase"

Trivial things that made her day
A winsome smile that took countless breaths away
Like the sun that perpetually sets in the west
The flirtatious ways that constantly kept her in unrest

She once cared though currently it is overwhelming to mention
The competition and how she abhorred the rising tension
Time was when she previously had her way
Conversely right now she will not have her say

The winsome smile she abominates the most
How it manages to entice the ones she loved and lost
Utterly useless, she feigns her euphoria
Till she cannot stand it any longer, she flees and tears

The loathsome pretense, how she fabricates it herself
The useless endeavors when there was everyone else
How those folks were replete with the blissfulness that couple shared
She engaged in that detested false merriment, like she even Damned cared

Your pathetic smiles and your feigned concern
Utterly repulsive like a withered fern
Too much this time, She wholly breaks down
She sprints up the stairs and the piercing tears; the results of what she has sown

How those folks were replete with the blissfulness that couple shared
Their enviable gladness, Like she even Damned cared
She was sobbing uncontrollably, this They will never know
The sympathetic wails, engulfing her very soul

The winding staircase, the splendid place to hide
Those blessed people below will never know her plight
She was done with self-pity, nothing will be alright
She wipes away the piercing tears and retreats to their side

Her imperishable smile she adopts once more
Not in any condition will they catch a glimpse of her heart, still sore
Like the sun that perpetually sets in the west
His repellent ways that constantly kept her at her best

Her knowledge surpasses yours, She knows better than you
What you have lost this time is more than just a glimpse of her view
Eradicate the hatred, perish the pernicious thought
And it was not too long before she forgot

She pens this down for you to visualize
The countless ways that you could actually compromise