There are so many things to be thankful for, and there are also countless things to go away from.
I know I should stay on track, (RUN, RUN, RUN!!!!) and that is definitely what I want to do. I HAVE TO. YOU WANT IT. I dare to admit that sometimes, things like boring butterflies or nicely wrapped up presents I see in the distance does draw me away. Blah, in that contemplative mood again. NONO, Haha I shall turn on the bubbly mode now. Must pray and remember that God is in control. Just to share, Philippians 4: 6-7 really helped me through a lot.

"Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."

Remember, pause. Remember to pray. Just pray. If you feel troubled now, just pray to Him. Often times, it is because we fail to pray. Bad things can happen to us but we have to move forward. Pray, and this peace will infiltrate you and fill you with this indescribable happiness.

It is a wonderful day! I shall be positive and open to new things. Yes, I know He (God) gives me gladness, but I am so afraid of earthly happiness, just like Antoinette. Not the spiritual kind, but the kind that you draw from others. I am so afraid of happiness because of the fear that I will lose it. Yet, I want happiness at times. I know that facts are facts, and it is the emotion I choose to attach to it that makes a difference. I feel that I cannot, and must never let my guard down though. Still, I can enjoy the happiness. Yet, at times I don't want it. Now, I want that though. Lit makes you crazy at times. Haha. Therefore, even when playing the part, I can put nothing. However at times, I forget and put emotions. No, emotions are only good when they are positive. Only positive, or block off. Haha, I am a switch, you know. And I have an imaginary shield. Haha, anyway, I gotta conquer greater distances later! You can do it, alright! Gotta grab a bit of sleep for a while.

I did plank/bridge for 6mins! Haha damn good you know. Not easy. Own guys again yay. I wanna join NS for a month. Too bad I can't. Putting your goals online, as said by my mentor, (I learnt it online, alright. Haha. My awesome coach that I will never know.) really motivates you. I CAN DO IT. By the way, Bicycle crunch is awesome. Learnt it from my friend. Go google it.

Really enjoy my new job. Zeal is awesome! :D Great company, great people. LOVE IT! THANKS GUYS! Really looking forward to know everyone better. This is such a unique group of people we're talking about. There's this certain kind of love everyone possesses towards each other, and that is so attractive! It attracts me to the company. (: Glad I can get to spend more time with my awesome gal pal by working with her too.

You can do it. You want it. You can do it. You do it, for you ONLY. You can do anything. Go run.

Covered great distance today. Like 15K and many vaults haha damn happy. Did so by running to the Home to visit and then back. Found out about the hospitalization of one and the passing of another. On the way there, I attempted many different paths in order to find it as I have never run there before.

Realized that the exploration brought me to many different paths that never led me there and brought me instead to extremely beautiful places but DEAD ENDS. Haha, sorry for being all lit-yish again but I was in that contemplative mood and realized that indeed, certain beautiful things which captivate me may actually come to naught. And then there were the long steps up, and it led to this extremely beautiful place, but then there were fences and it was dark and then I had to turn around. Going downhill, I realized how easy it was to just tumble down all the way, and then I remembered why I had been so determined previously. It is so darn hard to climb all the way up IN LIFE, yet so darn easy to just fall all the way and it was so swift it is unimaginable.

When I got harmed that dampened my brain's chemistry, I did go down a lot. I AM BACK ON TRACK. I cannot change facts but I can change my emotions towards it. I can do it. I can do it. YES YOU CAN. YOU CAN DO IT. YOU ARE STRONG. That is why I have to train, to protect myself. I have to.

It is so beautiful at night. It is so wonderful just to jump around and smile at random strangers or laugh to yourself. Just laugh. Just enjoy the cool breeze and the imaginary silence because nothing is that silent. I wanna do the new sport really well. Keep going. Read my old posts and saw how I wished to portray myself as an extremely happy person. Hahaha. Continue running, YL. Okay, I am happy now. Yay! (: You know, I think I am really weird sometimes, like I have a split personality. I can be really serious at times and then really random and funny. Haha okay gotta go train more goodnight.

OH YES and I did PLANK/BRIDGE FOR 5MINS 30SECS last night LOL. It is not easy man. Haha sorry just gotta post it here to encourage mez more to do more. I own guys manz. This is what nightly training gives you. GO NS PALZ. I AM GOING TO DO MORE. Haha I shall google it like yeah manz. I am a boy at heart. Okay bye.