I should not be blogging. I was unable to resist the temptation.

OH YES. My PHONE is NOT WITH ME. Please ignore the possibility that I may be ignoring your existence or am simply stuck up. Thanks.

You may email me or call my house phone. (:

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I should be doing my PI, the second draft. I wasted an entirety of six hours with the resultant being almost completely useless.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I want to scream so badly.

I shall not. Cool down. You can do it.

I just quit cheerleading. ):

How disappointing. I was unable to cope and my dad was displeased, and obviously, when I am unable to attend any more practices, I just had to leave. Haha, It was a memorable experience though. I will miss them! :D

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I anticipate Wednesdays eagerly.
Assisting the folks in the home actually motivates me to be a better person and to ignore my selfishness. I realize that I do have a soft spot for the elderly and the less fortunate. I may be unfeeling and unkind to people whom I see no need to care about but I actually contribute more to neglected others.

A particular event made me terribly touched.
'Do you need help?'

These simple words, this thoughtless action.

'I'm okay, but sure.'

I went in, cleared the stuff and did the mundane chores.

The lady, during the course of the episode mentioned this.
'You know, it is really hard for me to get help. There are always too little people around. Every time I look at the mess on my table, I feel very upset. '

'It's okay. It's alright now.'

After an extended period of time.

'You know, very little people actually offer to help. Thank you.'

Her voice was shaky, she was on the verge of tears.

I am unable to evince the emotions that overwhelmed my very self at that moment.

The lesson that I wish to share is to please lend aid to the forgotten people.
Will you?

It does not take much, just an open heart and a genuine smile and a fraction of your time.
Kindly inform me if your Wednesdays are available for the ones that will veritably appreciate it.

Do you not wish to ameliorate your character and elevate your level of compassion? (:

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I felt faint during PE yesterday and threw up after I ate. Sigh.
I could not push myself any further and when I was recuperating by the side, I started weeping for my state. I totally abhor it.

I engaged in self pity and I told myself, 'this is what happens after you go for operations, you lose your stamina and feel weak and utterly useless.' Ahhhhhhhhhh. WHY?!

I have awoken but I detest it. Should I not be fine? It has already been about two and a half months. I am strong. I wanna run, I want my previous self back. This is so unfair.

Okay STOP IT. I will be fine. (: I will be fine. At the very least, I still possess the ability to do my countless situps. :DD Be glad, yiling!

Hahaha okay pray for me!

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It was Ahkong's birthday celebration at night.
It was a tear-jerking reunion for myself.

My cousin, Amanda, truly touched me.
She is a young and thoughtful girl, a little older than my youngest sister.
She told Mama to be strong and her words conveyed everything.

Although I initiated some of the conversation, the genuineness of her actions touched me to tears. I could see the reciprocation from Mama's eyes.

'Tell Mama you love her.'

'Mama, I love you.'

This is so touching.
Really. Visualize.

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Anyway, I am truly apologetic for my harsh comments.
There was this portion about the rumors thing and the labeling of this person.

I may have offended and hurt the people around me.
I still wish to remain friends.
I am authentically sorry!

SORRY SORRY SORRY. (:
I shall endeavor to ameliorate the situation.


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And, it would help if I had an answer. ):
It's like I'm good?

sighhhhh. D: The rush and the Hopeless crush.