The only thing I care about now is acing my promos.

Why won't they get away.

I am in a queer state now. I stayed up till two plus for no apparent reason and I am really tired at the moment.

I commit bad acts some times, just like her.
And I feel bad, unlike her.

And I am dreadfully tired from it.
As events are past and memories are forgone, days drift on without a momentary pause.

I am extremely tired already.

I hate it- how I give up and then things take a complete turn.
I detest it- how I falter and alter my mindset every time.
I abhor how they like engaging in manipulation, and I am disappointed at how they revert to their old selves time and again.
I dislike how I give in and commit those baneful actions.

And most of all, I like it how we're happy at those temporal moments.
But when I let my guard down you're back to your old self.
But it's okay, you have an impervious shield. :D

People who perpetually have a cynical view about everything put me off in a sad way.
Will my friends be glad one day?

I left and returned, but now,
It's time to leave.

Okay, I have gone. :D Hehe.

I am in control.
I am not gonna participate in mind races.

((:

I'm glad it's a week's break! :D

Now for my gay side,
I love Chuanie, Vaish and Melmel :D :D
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I think "The Winding Staircase" is damn sad.
Haha. Attempt to put yourself in the person's shoes, engaging in "false merriment".
Well, I did once. Hahaha, sorry I just love my poems. They are my babies. :D

"The loathsome pretense, how she fabricates it herself
The useless endeavors when there was everyone else
How those folks were replete with the blissfulness that couple shared
She engaged in that detested false merriment, like she even Damned cared"

"How those folks were replete with the blissfulness that couple shared
Their enviable gladness, Like she even Damned cared
She was sobbing uncontrollably, this They will never know
The sympathetic wails, engulfing her very soul"

"The winding staircase, the splendid place to hide
Those blessed people below will never know her plight"

And
"Her imperishable smile she adopts once more"

Haha, those depressing moments I once went through!
Lol, but it's over.

How nice.
I love smiles.
They hide everything.
But they are genuine now. (:
I do not hide things anymore.
Haha! :D