It has truly been ages since I last updated. I recall utilizing this to improve my command of the language and it looks like this still is a great outlet for me to make use of. haha, this sounds so serious.

anyway, the past holiday has truly been a very trying one for me. Though it may sound very typical and this can happen to anyone, it is something like this that makes one treasure life and it awakens me to the fact that humans are weak and frail.

I've had this lump on my butt and I dismissed it off as a natural mutation and after undergoing the operation for the first time to rid that annoying thing, I was given a call to rush back to the hospital after certain tests. The operation was truly and experience. I opted for local a, and I was awake throughout the whole procedure. I heard things like' mysterious' during the op and the anaesthetic wore off several times during the op. The sewing up of the wound hurt quite a bit because the jab had already worn off. It was kinda scary, with people touching you and tugging at you. haha, sounds humourous, right.

Further tests conclude that this tumor is between malignant and benign, (they can't diagnose it) and the identified 'object' can spread and even reoccur in the same area or even other organs. This case is significantly rare and has surfaced in that hospital for about two times throughout the past decade or decades. wow.

I'm gonna survive anyway. :D
I was really upset, but i thought. 'Everything in life happens for a purpose or plan, and I'll have to go through it anyway, so I must be strong and happy.'

I'm alright now. (: The operation is on 7jan. that's a few days later. Do remember me in your prayers!

ANYWAY.

The holidays were great. HAHA I AM SO GLAD.

I am truly relieved that my burden has finally been lifted off after this long period of time and heartbreak. Sorry for those weird things! Have fun! I hope i mean it now.

It's just a pity that good things in life don't last. I've said this before. 'The world is ending and we should just treasure the time we have now.' I've said this to several people. Before that, I felt like being rash and impulsive and doing all that I wanted, but Qi told me that the world isn't ending now, and I should live for God. She's right, but it really is seemingly impossible to lay off everything and devote my all because there still is a part of me that is reluctant to. The message yesterday was really relevant. 'Not a hoof' should we leave on Earth, but we continue doing that because we're human and we're weak. How dampening.

I must stop caring.
STOP CARING!
hahaha, too bad i still do.
hmmmmm

Let's marvel at this beautiful sight together and enjoy the moment while it lasts.
alright?